have fun? is that enough for me??

don't know why.....but sometimes I just want to be alone. Sometimes I am tired of relationships(friendship?...have to define i think). But sometimes I am so desperate for that. After having fun with friends, I felt empty if we just had fun together. I want deeper relationship, not just hanging around together. I remember what I told my friend when he asked me this kind of prob," Sometimes usual talks(講難聽點就是哈啦) is necessary for deeper relationships. If you don't have this step first, how can you know this person more?" alas!!! now i'm just a little bit tired....of many things.....

BALL

Rose (my cousin) and I are going to the ball on holiday......Actually at first I didn't plan to come cos it's so expensive. However, my mom asked me to try and see what's the ball like since I have never been to any ball before.
Now I have to be worried about the clothes......which means I have to lose weight ....hahaha
But I still don't want to give up delicious food. hm.....

Lazy day

I finished the whole Japenese series. Still don't want to exercese nor study.....

Tjia-ching told me there are some problems in the English church(Bread of Life) about the worship team. Huu....There has been many problems in both English and Chinese church for these months. We all have to surrender to God and pray seriously. Pray for the leaders and pray that Bread of Life can truly live out the love and the life style of Jesus. We get together is not for religion nor for relationships but to let HIS kingdom come. We have to know what's GOD's will toward the people around us. To be sensitive to Holy Siprit. .....May Revolution pour upon the church!!

First time of blogging

the feeling of blogging...hm....quite different between keeping diary. Maybe it's also because of using English(don't know why but i can't "think" in English). Anyway, today I finished math mid-term exam, which means I have finished half of the semester. What did I get? Is it worth to study here?? These are two questions I have to think and evaluate. I can't just focus on my life here. If I lose my original goal and purpose, how could I face my family? how could I face my classmates in OT? how could I face my teachers and principle? The reason I leave. The reason I come here. I don't want to get lost in the midst of books, relationships and serving in church. Not to be selfish but still have to hold my principles...........to many things to learn.
My dreams? or the expectation from others? I'm a little bit confused.