weekly reflection

Last week has been a tough week for me. First of all, he materials in lectures became sophistaced, full of Latin and Greek. My speed of understanding and absorption seems really slow and inefficient, which depressed me a lot. Besides, the results of the test came out---not good I think. But it's understandable since I didn't put much effort. Thirdly, frustrated with my English. Maybe the reason is that I didn't speak english during Easter break, but I just could not use English to explian my logical thinking, even when chatting with course mates. In addition, I was kind of homesick. Maybe just felt a bit lonely. hm...the feelings is beyond words. I would say it's just light blue. Last and most important to me is the relationship between God. I didn't have intimacy with God this week, espacially when haveing 8am lectures. However, I came before God yesterday, having a long long prayer and I found the real me, standing barely before Him, without any cangue nor chains. Through the prayer, God revealed my supressed emotion again. Yeah, I cried before Him and laid on all my burdens and sorrows. It was hard to release my tightly grabbing hands but when I tried to release one, all the other things came out spontaneously.