Refresh me every moment!Lord!

Recently I have been busy serving in many ministries.(hm...feel sth wrong with my grammar.) Today after the service, suddenly I felt so tired and stressed. Not only because of the coming exam on Monday, but also of the dissappointment of myself. I still remember two weeks ago Christina shared about her stress and tiredness when she had so many works to do and so many commitments. "Yeah, I can totally understand" I thought, since I have similar experience when I was a cell group leader in Taiwan. The experience to be crushed and broken was so horrible. Even though I believe that by God's grace I can always survive and if the center of ministry is Him rather than me, I can always be balanced, it's still hard. SO HARD for me! On the train home, I prayed and asked God to forgive my complains, weakness and the tendoncy to do things by my own strength(I can already see the tragedy if I keep grabing all the things in my hands). "What's the purpose you do these ministries? What's the purpose of studying? If the purpose is to glorify me, why do you complain that you have less time to study? If the purpose is to glorify me, you will be GLAD to sacrifice rather than ending up self-pity!" Yeah! I know. But how come I always forget and so easily to become self-centered rather than God-centered? I don't want the previous horrible experience happens again. I want to have a whole new attitude when I serve. I want to glorify Your name ALL THE TIME. So please God, please refresh me every moment. Please remind me and give me strength to lay EVERYTHING in Your hand. Please make me depend on you ALL THE TIME!
差事與事奉
有些人在教會裡有差事，也有些人在教會裡事奉，分別在哪裡？
倘若你做是因為沒有人做，那就是差事。
倘若你做是因為要服事主，那就是事奉。

若有批評的時候你就不做，那就是差事。
若在批評下你仍不斷地做，那就是事奉。

若你是在不受影響下才做，那就是差事。
若你要犧牲也不停地去做，那就是事奉。

若你在當中很難得到滿足，那就是差事。
若你在當中時常得到滿足，那就是事奉。

若你所關心的是成功與否，那就是差事。
若你所關心的是盡忠與否，那就是事奉。

一般的教會都塞滿了做差事的人，
而興旺的教會卻塞滿了事奉的人。

而我們自己又如何呢？
若神叫你去事奉，就不要當作一件差事。
若你正在做差事，辭掉他而去一生事奉。
神不要我們在差事上打轉，卻願我們盡心盡性地事奉。

別人陪你走一里路，你願意陪人多走二里路嗎？


共勉之