Last Sun in the camp, God urged me to restore my relationship with my family. God made me see that the hurt I got from my family and the absence of love, which had great impact on my relationships with other people. In the past, I didn't get the love I seeked from my family. So I seeked love from teachers and friends. That was also the reason why I got hurt from people too because the love i'm seeking for could not be found from them. I always gave so much and burned myself with my own passion. And the person who received my love feels stressed. However, I didn't realise that the root of the problems was buried since young. Yes I want someone who can love me as mom and dad...and of course I failed and failed and hurt. Sometimes I do live in self-pity. But praise God that He made me face the problems!
This Thur, I rang my mom. God put courage in me so I told what I felt in the past and apologized that I used to love ppl around me and ministry more than to love my family first. I apologized that I was judgemental towards my family, which was pride as well. After my sharing, my mom told me she was touched! God seemed has anwsered many of her questions. Praise the LORD!!! I've never been so open to my mom before. But with God's strength, He broked the wall piece by piece. He will keep working in my family!!
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