“Unless the Lord builds the house, its builders labor in vain. Unless the Lord watches over the city, the watchmen stand guard in vain.” Psalms 127:1
If not God, who can change a barren land into a “heaven of Northern Thailand”? If not God, who can turn broken hearts into such a joyful dancing?
If not God, who can sustain them when the fallen world seems so overwhelming?
With the primitive impression of Northern Thailand, I had prepared for no shower and no flushing toilets. So you can tell how surprised I was when we arrived. It looks like a resort center! The teacher told us seven years ago, they had to sleep in scorpion house and eat snakes; but now the villagers all call the center “the heaven of Northern Thailand”! “They may live in the desert and sleep in the forests in safety.” (Eze 34:25) This is one of God’s promises for the center and indeed God has fulfilled.
It was hard to believe how much the children have been through when looking at their smiles because they are just so joyful. Most of them have experienced the darkest sins of human beings, yet the joy of the Lord really is their strength. “sorrowful, yet always rejoicing; poor, yet making many rich; having nothing, and yet possessing everything.”(2Co 6:10) Through human’s eyes, they may appear pitiable and poor; but through God’s eyes, they are precious and rich. Therefore, when we were up to the mountain and visited the villages, the tears in my eyes were not for poverty and primitiveness but for their lives without God. God has made me truly realize that He is the only and everything we need and how painful and heart-breaking when He saw that He is not the priority in our lives. God’s love towards us has become so real to me!
The faith and passion of the people there has stroke me. They always focus on God and the promises He’s given. We went to many new places where they plan to build new churches and centers. Some of these places are just lands with long grass. However, through the eyes of God, they saw churches full of people worshipping and all the villagers have turned to God. They praise God when they still have financial problems. They praise God even when they have no idea about the next meal for 200 children. They truly believe that God’s grace is always sufficient and His promises and love never fail.
Before the mission trip, my ears had heard of many testimonies about the center. But now my eyes have seen how God has been leading His people step by step. By reviewing how God has fulfilled each promise and looking forward the vision He has given, I feel so blessed to work with God as part of His plan at that moment. And as the last line from the center said, “Raise your holy hands and pray for the new lives of the drug addict and the salvation of the children!” We may have different lives and experiences, but the same God we believed has bound us together; and as His people we are all working together for His kingdom and glory.
星期六, 12月 24, 2005
Another reflection of the mission trip from JW
God’s work is awesome and inspiring to behold. He works in so many ways, sometimes suddenly like a clap of thunder and sometimes gradually like a seed sprouting, but always overcoming and life-transforming. The centre that He has planted in Northern Thailand is an incredible testimony of what He can do when there are workers obedient and willing.
The children we encountered were beautiful in their purity and passion. As I played with them, taught them and talk to them, God showed me how precious they were to Him and I just started to love them, from the youngest toddler to the oldest teen. I was unexpectedly humbled by their earnest and unashamed prayers, in particular on the night we arrived when they turned towards us and raised their voices to bring down the roof in prayer. Being a part of their chapel services was a privilege every morning. I cannot adequately describe the joyful delight of their praise, their heartfelt faces raised to heaven in the most sincere worship I’ve witnessed, and the overwhelming intensity of their prayer. The soaring sound of hundreds of children, their voices blending together as they cried out to their Saviour was something I will remember many years from now. I know I have much to learn before I can intercede as mightily as these prayer warriors.
When the teacher told us the sad pasts of the children, I was quietly stunned. Most had come from broken families. Many had seen their share of sexual abuse, violence and abandonment and death from drugs and AIDS. Speaking with them revealed a little of their painful histories and family tragedies. Yet this wasn’t the thing that shocked me. What shook my heart was how their hearts were still so content, how their faces shone with a joy that couldn’t be found anywhere else but the Lord. How they had truly traded in their sorrows, shame and pain for His perfect joy.
I couldn’t understand it when I thought back to my friends in Melbourne who had relatively storm-free lives, who had ten times as much in our eyes, and were yet so miserable and restless. Was it that these kids didn’t know any better here, with poverty and disease being so familiar? What did they have that gave them such bright hope despite their bleak futures and lack of opportunities? Then I put two and two together. God was their joy, their peace, their love, their hope. Peace when a sibling died from a drug overdose. Love that they couldn’t receive from their parents. Hope from the assurance that God was at work in their lives in spite of their unhappy circumstances.
We sing that all we need is God, that He is everything we need. I never truly understood this until now. When they had nothing at all, God intervened. He was simply everything to them. Take away God and they had nothing. I started to understand. I wanted to sing these words with this conviction too. Take away my family, my friends, my computer, my career, my ability to walk, hear, see. If I were left with God, would He be more than enough? Does abundant life mean possessions, social standing, job satisfaction, warm fellowship? Or does it simply mean a beautiful relationship with my Father?
The young people I met at New Life showed me what it means to be in love with Christ. What it means to count their salvation the greatest and most awe-inspiring blessing. I thank them so deeply for this and I come back desiring to know God better than I do now and to somehow impart the lessons I have learnt to the people I love. I come back praying to see my beloved church here join with our brothers and sisters in Thailand and all over the globe in shining like stars in a world of darkness and unthinkable despair.
By Jonathan Wong – Bread of Life Church Melbourne Australia –Dec’ 2005
The children we encountered were beautiful in their purity and passion. As I played with them, taught them and talk to them, God showed me how precious they were to Him and I just started to love them, from the youngest toddler to the oldest teen. I was unexpectedly humbled by their earnest and unashamed prayers, in particular on the night we arrived when they turned towards us and raised their voices to bring down the roof in prayer. Being a part of their chapel services was a privilege every morning. I cannot adequately describe the joyful delight of their praise, their heartfelt faces raised to heaven in the most sincere worship I’ve witnessed, and the overwhelming intensity of their prayer. The soaring sound of hundreds of children, their voices blending together as they cried out to their Saviour was something I will remember many years from now. I know I have much to learn before I can intercede as mightily as these prayer warriors.
When the teacher told us the sad pasts of the children, I was quietly stunned. Most had come from broken families. Many had seen their share of sexual abuse, violence and abandonment and death from drugs and AIDS. Speaking with them revealed a little of their painful histories and family tragedies. Yet this wasn’t the thing that shocked me. What shook my heart was how their hearts were still so content, how their faces shone with a joy that couldn’t be found anywhere else but the Lord. How they had truly traded in their sorrows, shame and pain for His perfect joy.
I couldn’t understand it when I thought back to my friends in Melbourne who had relatively storm-free lives, who had ten times as much in our eyes, and were yet so miserable and restless. Was it that these kids didn’t know any better here, with poverty and disease being so familiar? What did they have that gave them such bright hope despite their bleak futures and lack of opportunities? Then I put two and two together. God was their joy, their peace, their love, their hope. Peace when a sibling died from a drug overdose. Love that they couldn’t receive from their parents. Hope from the assurance that God was at work in their lives in spite of their unhappy circumstances.
We sing that all we need is God, that He is everything we need. I never truly understood this until now. When they had nothing at all, God intervened. He was simply everything to them. Take away God and they had nothing. I started to understand. I wanted to sing these words with this conviction too. Take away my family, my friends, my computer, my career, my ability to walk, hear, see. If I were left with God, would He be more than enough? Does abundant life mean possessions, social standing, job satisfaction, warm fellowship? Or does it simply mean a beautiful relationship with my Father?
The young people I met at New Life showed me what it means to be in love with Christ. What it means to count their salvation the greatest and most awe-inspiring blessing. I thank them so deeply for this and I come back desiring to know God better than I do now and to somehow impart the lessons I have learnt to the people I love. I come back praying to see my beloved church here join with our brothers and sisters in Thailand and all over the globe in shining like stars in a world of darkness and unthinkable despair.
By Jonathan Wong – Bread of Life Church Melbourne Australia –Dec’ 2005
Reports and Reflection – North Thailand Mission Trip(by J9, one of the mission trip member)
Sa wat dee kaa!!!
Well this mission trip to Thailand has been a blessing, an eye opener, an inspiration … basically, it has been one of the best experiences of my life. I had been told that on my first missions trip I would gain more than I give, but I never could have imagined all the blessings given to me through this trip.
Arriving at the New Life Drug Rehabilitation Centre, I was touched by all the children there. Though they were a bit shy at first, after a few classes with them, the strength, love and faith that the children and adults there was amazing. I was taken aback with the passion with which these children praised and prayed to God. On our first night in the centre, the whole team was totally awestruck when in the middle of the service, the few hundred children in the ‘church assembly hall’ (named the Nehemiah Hall) stood up, turned to us, and all in union, prayed for us their individual prayers and blessings.
Waking up each morning before sunrise, our thoughts and hearts were turned to God through the Christian songs which were blasted through the camp as a wake up call, and in the early morning chapel. At 5 am in the morning we could hear the sounds of the children in the hall practicing music, and truly worshipping God without any hindrance or distraction. In the morning service, we followed the children who led us in songs, and their accompanying actions. I found it extraordinary, that just being in this place, and looking to the children as leaders, we were able to forget all our self-consciousness, and happily dance to songs, whereas back in Australia, we may have stopped and thought: “Am I embarrassing myself?”
Throughout the week, during classes and in the Thai school, I was moved by how loving and respectful these children were. They were thankful for everything that they had. They didn’t have many ‘treats,’ or toys or anything… but they found happiness in chasing around crickets, using a spider as a yoyo, and most of all, they were just so thankful for being in the centre itself. Wherever you went, whenever you saw them, the children would always be smiling. The best was when we were able to sit down in smaller groups and actually get to know them personally. It was then that we were able to find out all the atrocities that these children have been through. They’d been through war, family break downs, death, and abuse; but still, they were happy, and thanked and loved God unconditionally. Even more touching, was how for many, their greatest endeavour was to go out, and share the gospel with everyone they could, as their hearts told them “I have been given this amazing gift of Jesus, and now I want to give to others too.”
Visiting the villages up in the mountains, and seeing all the work being done there, we were all struck by the amount of faith that the people, who planted churches far up in these mountains had. They did not have the ‘funds’ or any materials at all, but they trusted in God for everything, and God provided. Through them, God is doing mighty works, and touching lives, where before there seemed little hope and happiness. It was truly amazing to witness all of this, and to see how God is raising up these children, to mighty men and women of God, who are going to go out there and impact the world in an awesome way.
Jeannine Loh
Well this mission trip to Thailand has been a blessing, an eye opener, an inspiration … basically, it has been one of the best experiences of my life. I had been told that on my first missions trip I would gain more than I give, but I never could have imagined all the blessings given to me through this trip.
Arriving at the New Life Drug Rehabilitation Centre, I was touched by all the children there. Though they were a bit shy at first, after a few classes with them, the strength, love and faith that the children and adults there was amazing. I was taken aback with the passion with which these children praised and prayed to God. On our first night in the centre, the whole team was totally awestruck when in the middle of the service, the few hundred children in the ‘church assembly hall’ (named the Nehemiah Hall) stood up, turned to us, and all in union, prayed for us their individual prayers and blessings.
Waking up each morning before sunrise, our thoughts and hearts were turned to God through the Christian songs which were blasted through the camp as a wake up call, and in the early morning chapel. At 5 am in the morning we could hear the sounds of the children in the hall practicing music, and truly worshipping God without any hindrance or distraction. In the morning service, we followed the children who led us in songs, and their accompanying actions. I found it extraordinary, that just being in this place, and looking to the children as leaders, we were able to forget all our self-consciousness, and happily dance to songs, whereas back in Australia, we may have stopped and thought: “Am I embarrassing myself?”
Throughout the week, during classes and in the Thai school, I was moved by how loving and respectful these children were. They were thankful for everything that they had. They didn’t have many ‘treats,’ or toys or anything… but they found happiness in chasing around crickets, using a spider as a yoyo, and most of all, they were just so thankful for being in the centre itself. Wherever you went, whenever you saw them, the children would always be smiling. The best was when we were able to sit down in smaller groups and actually get to know them personally. It was then that we were able to find out all the atrocities that these children have been through. They’d been through war, family break downs, death, and abuse; but still, they were happy, and thanked and loved God unconditionally. Even more touching, was how for many, their greatest endeavour was to go out, and share the gospel with everyone they could, as their hearts told them “I have been given this amazing gift of Jesus, and now I want to give to others too.”
Visiting the villages up in the mountains, and seeing all the work being done there, we were all struck by the amount of faith that the people, who planted churches far up in these mountains had. They did not have the ‘funds’ or any materials at all, but they trusted in God for everything, and God provided. Through them, God is doing mighty works, and touching lives, where before there seemed little hope and happiness. It was truly amazing to witness all of this, and to see how God is raising up these children, to mighty men and women of God, who are going to go out there and impact the world in an awesome way.
Jeannine Loh
星期三, 11月 23, 2005
I was lost!!!! but now i'm found! :p
Today I got lost THREEEEEEEEEEE times!!That was an record.
1. From Myer(a department store in Aus) to Melb Central
It was so confusing! I just couldn't find the stat; in the mean time, someone was following me(quite scary hey~). But thank God it was Tom and he showed me the way to the stat. *phew*
2. Couldn't find bus 298 to Jeannine's house
After arriving box hill and following J9's instruction, I successfully found the bus stops. But....how come I couldn't find no. 298?!!!! well, there must be sth wrong with my eyes. *sigh* Anyway, thank God again that Joce just came back from work and gave me a lift.^^"
3.From Christina's house to Heidelberg station
quoted from Christina,"how...is...it...possible?"
well, nothing is impossible with God! (oops wrong quote)
Anyway, don't ask me cos even myself didn't know what was going on! I turned to the opposite direction and not until 20 min did I realise it was the wrong way. So for a normally 10 min walk, I took me 45 min instead!!
But still..thank God for finding the right way in the end and getting much exercise done today!
1. From Myer(a department store in Aus) to Melb Central
It was so confusing! I just couldn't find the stat; in the mean time, someone was following me(quite scary hey~). But thank God it was Tom and he showed me the way to the stat. *phew*
2. Couldn't find bus 298 to Jeannine's house
After arriving box hill and following J9's instruction, I successfully found the bus stops. But....how come I couldn't find no. 298?!!!! well, there must be sth wrong with my eyes. *sigh* Anyway, thank God again that Joce just came back from work and gave me a lift.^^"
3.From Christina's house to Heidelberg station
quoted from Christina,"how...is...it...possible?"
well, nothing is impossible with God! (oops wrong quote)
Anyway, don't ask me cos even myself didn't know what was going on! I turned to the opposite direction and not until 20 min did I realise it was the wrong way. So for a normally 10 min walk, I took me 45 min instead!!
But still..thank God for finding the right way in the end and getting much exercise done today!
星期一, 11月 21, 2005
Eve of Christina's Birthday~~the "scary" surprise
For those who don't know Christina-she's my spiritual companion and she's a huge blessing God has ever given to me.
Tue was her 21st birthday so we planned to give her a surprise.
Plan A: ambush her in the church before the prayer meeting. <--but she's not going!!
so.....Plan B: According to her mom she will be home at 7pm on Mon. So we'll crash at her place and make sure that she will be the one who answer the door.....we planned to light up a row of fairy sticks <---failed because she's accompanying a chior until 10pm!!!
10pm is pretty late and because of my bad acting skill she already knew the plan, but how can we give up so easily? wahaha~~~Of course not! Therefore, here's Plan C: we would ambush in her house and after trying many ways of "scaring her", Jeannine and I waited in the bush near the door ,and Ps Jeremy, Aunty Carol, JonWong, Esther, Edward hid in a room for the second shot.
Finally Plan C went quite well but we scared her more than gave her a surprise !:p
Well, hope she liked this scary experience! hehe...
( hm...maybe next time I should plan for surprise rather than scare )
星期四, 11月 17, 2005
When I say"I am a Christian"
作者:佚名
When I say..."I am a Christian" 當我說我是基督徒時
I'm not shouting "I am saved" 我並不是在叫喊著 "我是得救的"
I'm whispering "I get lost!" 而是在低聲的說 "我曾經迷失過"
"That is why I chose this way." "所以我選擇了這條路"
When I say..."I am a Christian" 當我說我是基督徒時
I don't speak of this with pride. 並不是因為我覺得比你高一等
I'm confessing that I stumble 而是承認我一直在蹣跚而行
and need someone to be my guide. 所以我需要一位生命中的嚮導
When I say..."I am a Christian" 當我說我是基督徒時
I'm not trying to be strong. 我並不是在顯示自己很強壯
I'm professing that I'm weak 而是在承認自己的軟弱
and pray for strength to carry on. 並禱告尋求繼續前進的力量
When I say..."I am a Christian" 當我說我是基督徒時
I'm not bragging of success. 我並不是在吹噓我的成功
I'm admitting I have failed 而是承認自己的失敗
and cannot ever pay the debt. 並且沒有能力償還所背負的債
When I say..."I am a Christian" 當我說我是基督徒時
I'm not claiming to be perfect, 我並不是在自我宣稱我是完美的
my flaws are too visible 而是讓你看到我生命中的瑕疵是這麼的明顯
but God believes I'm worth it. 但神相信我是有價值的
When I say..."I am a Christian" 當我說我是基督徒時
I still feel the sting of pain 我還是會感到痛如針刺般
I have my share of heartaches 但我有神來分擔我的心痛
which is why I seek His name. 所以我會繼續尋求祂的面
When I say..."I am a Christian" 當我說我是基督徒時
I do not wish to judge. 我並不是在評價你
I have no authority. 因為我沒有那樣的權柄
I only know I'm loved. 我只知道我是被愛著的
When I say..."I am a Christian" 當我說我是基督徒時
I'm not shouting "I am saved" 我並不是在叫喊著 "我是得救的"
I'm whispering "I get lost!" 而是在低聲的說 "我曾經迷失過"
"That is why I chose this way." "所以我選擇了這條路"
When I say..."I am a Christian" 當我說我是基督徒時
I don't speak of this with pride. 並不是因為我覺得比你高一等
I'm confessing that I stumble 而是承認我一直在蹣跚而行
and need someone to be my guide. 所以我需要一位生命中的嚮導
When I say..."I am a Christian" 當我說我是基督徒時
I'm not trying to be strong. 我並不是在顯示自己很強壯
I'm professing that I'm weak 而是在承認自己的軟弱
and pray for strength to carry on. 並禱告尋求繼續前進的力量
When I say..."I am a Christian" 當我說我是基督徒時
I'm not bragging of success. 我並不是在吹噓我的成功
I'm admitting I have failed 而是承認自己的失敗
and cannot ever pay the debt. 並且沒有能力償還所背負的債
When I say..."I am a Christian" 當我說我是基督徒時
I'm not claiming to be perfect, 我並不是在自我宣稱我是完美的
my flaws are too visible 而是讓你看到我生命中的瑕疵是這麼的明顯
but God believes I'm worth it. 但神相信我是有價值的
When I say..."I am a Christian" 當我說我是基督徒時
I still feel the sting of pain 我還是會感到痛如針刺般
I have my share of heartaches 但我有神來分擔我的心痛
which is why I seek His name. 所以我會繼續尋求祂的面
When I say..."I am a Christian" 當我說我是基督徒時
I do not wish to judge. 我並不是在評價你
I have no authority. 因為我沒有那樣的權柄
I only know I'm loved. 我只知道我是被愛著的
星期六, 11月 12, 2005
Tears after the exams
"at least it was a new experience..." I was talking to J9 on the msn....
I've never ever cried after an exam...except this one.
I've never ever felt so stressed before!
也許是因為這次肩上背著的不只是自己的未來與夢想，更沈重的是家人的付出與犧牲。
以前，自己作的自己扛，沒什麼大不了。但這次不同，我身上背負著多少人的期望與關懷，有多少人因為我選擇了這條路而受影響？ 我又怎能置之不理無動於衷？
第一次，真的是第一次為了考試掉淚
不是為著分數，我想是壓力 是愧對 很多複雜的感覺吧！
I've never ever cried after an exam...except this one.
I've never ever felt so stressed before!
也許是因為這次肩上背著的不只是自己的未來與夢想，更沈重的是家人的付出與犧牲。
以前，自己作的自己扛，沒什麼大不了。但這次不同，我身上背負著多少人的期望與關懷，有多少人因為我選擇了這條路而受影響？ 我又怎能置之不理無動於衷？
第一次，真的是第一次為了考試掉淚
不是為著分數，我想是壓力 是愧對 很多複雜的感覺吧！
星期一, 10月 31, 2005
Cello
from ptt2 bbs
by moulinrouge
回憶是一段拉飽的弓
以淒美的臉龐
在生命的弦上不斷顫抖
羽毛色的利箭，你劃破了
比惡夢還黑的夜
為什麼卻割不開自己
比泉水還軟的心？
一個小節裡塞滿了一整季
未熟先爛的牽掛
一彎琴腹，即降伏了
纖纖絮語以外的狂風暴雨
你該以哪隻手持弓宣戰？
哪垂髮束的擺動能解放指揮棒？
疾疾奔走，四弦馳騁天際
眼波徐徐，哪門的流轉唱成了歌
背著看似巨大的靈魂
你卻把整株生命的脆弱全凝至胸前
那把褐木色的棺材裡
倩影猶在，隨音符脈動的軀體
不曾想催人釀淚
其實，你是催逼自己奮力畫著
看不見的天堂
從前，現在，以至樂音渺茫的未來
一段弓
總比一句話說得悠長
這首曲子
卻撐不完一輩子了
by moulinrouge
回憶是一段拉飽的弓
以淒美的臉龐
在生命的弦上不斷顫抖
羽毛色的利箭，你劃破了
比惡夢還黑的夜
為什麼卻割不開自己
比泉水還軟的心？
一個小節裡塞滿了一整季
未熟先爛的牽掛
一彎琴腹，即降伏了
纖纖絮語以外的狂風暴雨
你該以哪隻手持弓宣戰？
哪垂髮束的擺動能解放指揮棒？
疾疾奔走，四弦馳騁天際
眼波徐徐，哪門的流轉唱成了歌
背著看似巨大的靈魂
你卻把整株生命的脆弱全凝至胸前
那把褐木色的棺材裡
倩影猶在，隨音符脈動的軀體
不曾想催人釀淚
其實，你是催逼自己奮力畫著
看不見的天堂
從前，現在，以至樂音渺茫的未來
一段弓
總比一句話說得悠長
這首曲子
卻撐不完一輩子了
星期六, 10月 22, 2005
With All I Am
by Reuben Morgan
Into Your hands I commit again with all I am for You, Lord.
You hold my world in the palm of Your hand.
And I am Yours forever.
I'll walk with You wherever You go.
Through tears and joy, I'll trust in YOu.
And I'll live in all of Your ways.
And Your promises forever.
Jesus, I believe in You.
Jesus, I belong to You.
You're the reason that I live, the reason that I sing
With all I am.
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These past few weeks have been tough.......(I've shared with some people, don't really want to talk about the details here)
I'm "on the process" towards this song. My prayer is that one day I can sing just as I am in the walk with God!
Into Your hands I commit again with all I am for You, Lord.
You hold my world in the palm of Your hand.
And I am Yours forever.
I'll walk with You wherever You go.
Through tears and joy, I'll trust in YOu.
And I'll live in all of Your ways.
And Your promises forever.
Jesus, I believe in You.
Jesus, I belong to You.
You're the reason that I live, the reason that I sing
With all I am.
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These past few weeks have been tough.......(I've shared with some people, don't really want to talk about the details here)
I'm "on the process" towards this song. My prayer is that one day I can sing just as I am in the walk with God!
星期一, 9月 19, 2005
Birthday Blessing
It has been a while I haven't been bloging. Life is busy....and I'm doing SOAP (for those who don't know, SOAP stands for scripture, observation, application and prayer.)journaling so don't really have time to take care of the blog. But may be I'll put some of my journal on in my holiday next week!(hm....but another problem is I can't access to internet at home at the moment.) anyway we'll see how it goes!!
I want to praise God for His love and blessing through the people around me!
My birthday this year is the day before the midterm exam so I didn't have the mood to celebrate. Surprisingly, since 00:00 12 of sep, there has been soooooooo many wishes and greetings from my friends!
* I got a huge card full of family photoes from my family in Taiwan!!
* My cousin got me a cake and bracelace and with Luke and Louis we sang happy birthday together!
*Dennis made a yogourt Cheese cake! Yum!
*Dinne with Luke, Louis and Rose!
*Ecards from Ariel and Sherry. (My ex-cell group leader and primary schoolmate!)
*SMS from Ling, Audrey, Yenni, Shirley, April, etc.
*phone calls from Yvonne and Freda.
*After midterm, Charlotte, Agnes, Bonnie, Chiu and Henry had lunch at Coretto together.
*On Tuesday prayer meeting, Ps Jeremy and Aunty Carol gave me a book!!! I was so surprised that they even know my birthday!!!^^
*After the prayer meets, Christina bought a cake and we celebrated with all the ppl in prayer meets! (I was shocked and touched....dunno how to react at the spot)
*On Sun, Christina gave me a photo frame with the pic of me and her and my favorite scripture!!!(I'm still wondering how did she know...hm..) This is the most touching gift I have ever had!!
Originally, i thought this year's Bday will be lonely and stressed because of the midterm exam. And since I can't celebrate with my family and cell group in Taiwan, I thought I'll be sad and homesick....
But Praise the Lord, He gave me even more love and blessing through the ppl around me! This is the best Birthday I have ever had. Even though I don't have a party or sth, I've received so much more and been touched A LOT!!!!!
Thank you Lord! and Thank you all who have been a great bless in my life! I really praise God for giving me so many great friends, family and spiritual companion!! I know that I'm not good at expressing my feelings and thoughts, and I don't even know how to express my gratitude exept from saying "Thank you"! But honestly, I want to give thanks to all of you!!!^_______________^
I want to praise God for His love and blessing through the people around me!
My birthday this year is the day before the midterm exam so I didn't have the mood to celebrate. Surprisingly, since 00:00 12 of sep, there has been soooooooo many wishes and greetings from my friends!
* I got a huge card full of family photoes from my family in Taiwan!!
* My cousin got me a cake and bracelace and with Luke and Louis we sang happy birthday together!
*Dennis made a yogourt Cheese cake! Yum!
*Dinne with Luke, Louis and Rose!
*Ecards from Ariel and Sherry. (My ex-cell group leader and primary schoolmate!)
*SMS from Ling, Audrey, Yenni, Shirley, April, etc.
*phone calls from Yvonne and Freda.
*After midterm, Charlotte, Agnes, Bonnie, Chiu and Henry had lunch at Coretto together.
*On Tuesday prayer meeting, Ps Jeremy and Aunty Carol gave me a book!!! I was so surprised that they even know my birthday!!!^^
*After the prayer meets, Christina bought a cake and we celebrated with all the ppl in prayer meets! (I was shocked and touched....dunno how to react at the spot)
*On Sun, Christina gave me a photo frame with the pic of me and her and my favorite scripture!!!(I'm still wondering how did she know...hm..) This is the most touching gift I have ever had!!
Originally, i thought this year's Bday will be lonely and stressed because of the midterm exam. And since I can't celebrate with my family and cell group in Taiwan, I thought I'll be sad and homesick....
But Praise the Lord, He gave me even more love and blessing through the ppl around me! This is the best Birthday I have ever had. Even though I don't have a party or sth, I've received so much more and been touched A LOT!!!!!
Thank you Lord! and Thank you all who have been a great bless in my life! I really praise God for giving me so many great friends, family and spiritual companion!! I know that I'm not good at expressing my feelings and thoughts, and I don't even know how to express my gratitude exept from saying "Thank you"! But honestly, I want to give thanks to all of you!!!^_______________^
星期四, 6月 16, 2005
Daily reflection---Proverbs
I read Proverbs chp 16 today and God has spoken to me through many verses.
"Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed."
"In his heart a man plans his course but the Lord determines his steps"
God seemed distant these days. Of course I know that the relationship with God is not based on feelings, but it's still hard to keep "close" to God if I don't feel "closeness". These two verses reminded me the faithfulness and grace of God.
Last year, when I went through the valley of tears, God gave me these two verses. When I had such a little faith, it was(is) God that made my faith grow. When there was no one I can share and pray with, it was(is) God that accompanied me through the dark path of loneliness.
It's always good to recall how amazing God's grace is, which is one of the sources of strength to continue the journey.
"The Lord detests all the proud of heart. Be sure of this: They will not go unpunished."
"Pride goes before destruction, a haughty spirit before a fall"
God sees pride as an extremely serious problem. And pride is an old enemy whom I've always been fighting with.
Sometimes I'm proud unconsciously. This Sun when Pastor asked me how's the relationship with my parents, I told him that my mom always asked me what to do with my bro,etc. Then Pastor said,"So it's more like you are discipling you mom??".
This reminded me the pattern I used to get along with my parents. With my mom, I usually share my thoughts and opinions, but sometimes I lost my respect and have bad attitudes towards her. The underlying reason is the pride in my heart!
This is the prob I've been changing and still need more changes!
"Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed."
"In his heart a man plans his course but the Lord determines his steps"
God seemed distant these days. Of course I know that the relationship with God is not based on feelings, but it's still hard to keep "close" to God if I don't feel "closeness". These two verses reminded me the faithfulness and grace of God.
Last year, when I went through the valley of tears, God gave me these two verses. When I had such a little faith, it was(is) God that made my faith grow. When there was no one I can share and pray with, it was(is) God that accompanied me through the dark path of loneliness.
It's always good to recall how amazing God's grace is, which is one of the sources of strength to continue the journey.
"The Lord detests all the proud of heart. Be sure of this: They will not go unpunished."
"Pride goes before destruction, a haughty spirit before a fall"
God sees pride as an extremely serious problem. And pride is an old enemy whom I've always been fighting with.
Sometimes I'm proud unconsciously. This Sun when Pastor asked me how's the relationship with my parents, I told him that my mom always asked me what to do with my bro,etc. Then Pastor said,"So it's more like you are discipling you mom??".
This reminded me the pattern I used to get along with my parents. With my mom, I usually share my thoughts and opinions, but sometimes I lost my respect and have bad attitudes towards her. The underlying reason is the pride in my heart!
This is the prob I've been changing and still need more changes!
星期日, 6月 12, 2005
pls pray for us
Recently there have been many attacks on my cell group.
Keep us in your prayers if you are a christian.
Keep us in your prayers if you are a christian.
Last "intense" week
My priority has been distorted last week. And I was SOOO ashamed in front of God since I think I've let Him down. Yeah and that reminded me what Pastor has said,"Many ppl think God always frowns on them but atually He always smiles on us." This is me. But even though I "know" God always loves me and knows me so well, somehow I still felt sooooo ashamed.
I am so sorry Lord......SOOOOOO sorry!!
Sometimes I forget the price you've paid and the sacrifice you've made.
I've broken so many promises I've made. I hate myself like that---having ups and downs in the relationship with God. Why can't I only have deeper and more intimate relationship?? Why can't I hold God tightly ALWAYS??
------becos I'm sinner and I'm so weak. That's why I'm so surprised that God can even fulfill His will through such imperfect human beings. So can God still use me?? Of course!! I'll boast my weakness!
I am so sorry Lord......SOOOOOO sorry!!
Sometimes I forget the price you've paid and the sacrifice you've made.
I've broken so many promises I've made. I hate myself like that---having ups and downs in the relationship with God. Why can't I only have deeper and more intimate relationship?? Why can't I hold God tightly ALWAYS??
------becos I'm sinner and I'm so weak. That's why I'm so surprised that God can even fulfill His will through such imperfect human beings. So can God still use me?? Of course!! I'll boast my weakness!
星期五, 5月 27, 2005
Exam is on the corner!
Time flies!!! Today is the last day of uni!
hm....now I need God's grace to pass my EXAMS!!! (haha..but I know His grace is always sufficient for me!)
well, just a bit stressed since I'm not an efficient learner.
Study extremely hard for God!!
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Stressed and.....bored!! Why?? I want your everlasting arms Lord!! Fill my cup!! I don't know why I have this feeling but pls take it away and fill me with your joy!
hm....now I need God's grace to pass my EXAMS!!! (haha..but I know His grace is always sufficient for me!)
well, just a bit stressed since I'm not an efficient learner.
Study extremely hard for God!!
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Stressed and.....bored!! Why?? I want your everlasting arms Lord!! Fill my cup!! I don't know why I have this feeling but pls take it away and fill me with your joy!
星期一, 5月 09, 2005
Love our neighbors even when we don't love them!
I called several people tonight. In Taiwan we call"caring calls".
This reminded me the past experiences when I was responsible for dialing regular caring call. I'm not a talkative person unless there is a "matching" topic, so it was hard to chat with someone I don't really know. And I don't like the feeling to find sth to talk about purposely and the "awkward silence". Besides, "caring call" should be dialed out of caring, not out of responsibility right? But what if I just don't have the love to care about them? what if I am just so tired and dry to make the phone calls? well, today God reminded me that I cannot always wait for the changes of my heart then step out. Action can also bring out the love!
Therefore, I'll keep caring for them no matter how I feel cos God is always the source of love! =)
This is also applicable in the relationship with God. Even though sometimes I don't love Him, I can still make the decision to establish the relationship with God. "I don't love you Lord! But I'm longing for the passion for the passion for you!" Yeah, love is not a feeling but a decision. When God seems distant and unreachable, I will always say He is AWSOME!!!
This reminded me the past experiences when I was responsible for dialing regular caring call. I'm not a talkative person unless there is a "matching" topic, so it was hard to chat with someone I don't really know. And I don't like the feeling to find sth to talk about purposely and the "awkward silence". Besides, "caring call" should be dialed out of caring, not out of responsibility right? But what if I just don't have the love to care about them? what if I am just so tired and dry to make the phone calls? well, today God reminded me that I cannot always wait for the changes of my heart then step out. Action can also bring out the love!
Therefore, I'll keep caring for them no matter how I feel cos God is always the source of love! =)
This is also applicable in the relationship with God. Even though sometimes I don't love Him, I can still make the decision to establish the relationship with God. "I don't love you Lord! But I'm longing for the passion for the passion for you!" Yeah, love is not a feeling but a decision. When God seems distant and unreachable, I will always say He is AWSOME!!!
星期日, 5月 08, 2005
You give and take away
"We are stewards of whatever God gives us."
Last week my mom told me that my cousin and a good friend of my Dad have an rectum cancer. And then one thing bumped into my head,'Yeah, I know everything I have is a gift from God. But how would I react if God take it away? For example, I know that getting into medicine is a miracle. But if I have cancer or some diseases that disrupt my life and all my plans, or somehow God just takes it away, could I feel free to let it go?' To be true, I may not! well, it's such a difficult task to learn isn't it? I am a stweard to take care of whatever God has given me. Yeah, my life is not actually mine but His. However, I often forget that I don't OWN anything, I just take the best care of it that I can. hm...still have SOOOOOO many things to learn and to be changed.
"What do you have that God hasn't given you? And if all you have is from God why boast as though you have accomplished something on your own?" Not having this concept of stewardship is also the source of my pride. So Lord, be ruthless with me in revealing my selfish ambition and my lack of willingness to die to myself! Mould me even if I'm afraid of the uncomfortable process! Cleanse me even if it's so hard to let my sin go!
The closer you've drawn me, the more humble I feel.
Last week my mom told me that my cousin and a good friend of my Dad have an rectum cancer. And then one thing bumped into my head,'Yeah, I know everything I have is a gift from God. But how would I react if God take it away? For example, I know that getting into medicine is a miracle. But if I have cancer or some diseases that disrupt my life and all my plans, or somehow God just takes it away, could I feel free to let it go?' To be true, I may not! well, it's such a difficult task to learn isn't it? I am a stweard to take care of whatever God has given me. Yeah, my life is not actually mine but His. However, I often forget that I don't OWN anything, I just take the best care of it that I can. hm...still have SOOOOOO many things to learn and to be changed.
"What do you have that God hasn't given you? And if all you have is from God why boast as though you have accomplished something on your own?" Not having this concept of stewardship is also the source of my pride. So Lord, be ruthless with me in revealing my selfish ambition and my lack of willingness to die to myself! Mould me even if I'm afraid of the uncomfortable process! Cleanse me even if it's so hard to let my sin go!
The closer you've drawn me, the more humble I feel.
星期六, 4月 30, 2005
Restore the relationship with my family
Last Sun in the camp, God urged me to restore my relationship with my family. God made me see that the hurt I got from my family and the absence of love, which had great impact on my relationships with other people. In the past, I didn't get the love I seeked from my family. So I seeked love from teachers and friends. That was also the reason why I got hurt from people too because the love i'm seeking for could not be found from them. I always gave so much and burned myself with my own passion. And the person who received my love feels stressed. However, I didn't realise that the root of the problems was buried since young. Yes I want someone who can love me as mom and dad...and of course I failed and failed and hurt. Sometimes I do live in self-pity. But praise God that He made me face the problems!
This Thur, I rang my mom. God put courage in me so I told what I felt in the past and apologized that I used to love ppl around me and ministry more than to love my family first. I apologized that I was judgemental towards my family, which was pride as well. After my sharing, my mom told me she was touched! God seemed has anwsered many of her questions. Praise the LORD!!! I've never been so open to my mom before. But with God's strength, He broked the wall piece by piece. He will keep working in my family!!
This Thur, I rang my mom. God put courage in me so I told what I felt in the past and apologized that I used to love ppl around me and ministry more than to love my family first. I apologized that I was judgemental towards my family, which was pride as well. After my sharing, my mom told me she was touched! God seemed has anwsered many of her questions. Praise the LORD!!! I've never been so open to my mom before. But with God's strength, He broked the wall piece by piece. He will keep working in my family!!
星期二, 4月 12, 2005
Thanksgiving and praises in my heart!
Dear Lord, I humble myself before you today. Fater, forgive me when I come to you in prayer with my long list that I want you to fulfill. Help me to worship and praise You in my prayers rather than telling You what I want You to do. Even as I go about my day at university, help me to maintain an attitude of praise and worhsip. May I be able to declare and proclaim Your power and Your sovereignty to every person that I meet today.
Lord, You are so amazing! You take care of every creation. All of the materials in my textbook reveal your glory and power! You even take care of bacteria and virus! "Praise the Lord, O my soul; all my inmost being, praise his holy name."
In Jesus' name, Amen!
Lord, You are so amazing! You take care of every creation. All of the materials in my textbook reveal your glory and power! You even take care of bacteria and virus! "Praise the Lord, O my soul; all my inmost being, praise his holy name."
In Jesus' name, Amen!
星期日, 4月 10, 2005
weekly reflection
Last week has been a tough week for me. First of all, he materials in lectures became sophistaced, full of Latin and Greek. My speed of understanding and absorption seems really slow and inefficient, which depressed me a lot. Besides, the results of the test came out---not good I think. But it's understandable since I didn't put much effort. Thirdly, frustrated with my English. Maybe the reason is that I didn't speak english during Easter break, but I just could not use English to explian my logical thinking, even when chatting with course mates. In addition, I was kind of homesick. Maybe just felt a bit lonely. hm...the feelings is beyond words. I would say it's just light blue. Last and most important to me is the relationship between God. I didn't have intimacy with God this week, espacially when haveing 8am lectures. However, I came before God yesterday, having a long long prayer and I found the real me, standing barely before Him, without any cangue nor chains. Through the prayer, God revealed my supressed emotion again. Yeah, I cried before Him and laid on all my burdens and sorrows. It was hard to release my tightly grabbing hands but when I tried to release one, all the other things came out spontaneously.
星期日, 4月 03, 2005
Refresh me every moment!Lord!
Recently I have been busy serving in many ministries.(hm...feel sth wrong with my grammar.) Today after the service, suddenly I felt so tired and stressed. Not only because of the coming exam on Monday, but also of the dissappointment of myself. I still remember two weeks ago Christina shared about her stress and tiredness when she had so many works to do and so many commitments. "Yeah, I can totally understand" I thought, since I have similar experience when I was a cell group leader in Taiwan. The experience to be crushed and broken was so horrible. Even though I believe that by God's grace I can always survive and if the center of ministry is Him rather than me, I can always be balanced, it's still hard. SO HARD for me! On the train home, I prayed and asked God to forgive my complains, weakness and the tendoncy to do things by my own strength(I can already see the tragedy if I keep grabing all the things in my hands). "What's the purpose you do these ministries? What's the purpose of studying? If the purpose is to glorify me, why do you complain that you have less time to study? If the purpose is to glorify me, you will be GLAD to sacrifice rather than ending up self-pity!" Yeah! I know. But how come I always forget and so easily to become self-centered rather than God-centered? I don't want the previous horrible experience happens again. I want to have a whole new attitude when I serve. I want to glorify Your name ALL THE TIME. So please God, please refresh me every moment. Please remind me and give me strength to lay EVERYTHING in Your hand. Please make me depend on you ALL THE TIME!
差事與事奉
有些人在教會裡有差事，也有些人在教會裡事奉，分別在哪裡？
倘若你做是因為沒有人做，那就是差事。
倘若你做是因為要服事主，那就是事奉。
若有批評的時候你就不做，那就是差事。
若在批評下你仍不斷地做，那就是事奉。
若你是在不受影響下才做，那就是差事。
若你要犧牲也不停地去做，那就是事奉。
若你在當中很難得到滿足，那就是差事。
若你在當中時常得到滿足，那就是事奉。
若你所關心的是成功與否，那就是差事。
若你所關心的是盡忠與否，那就是事奉。
一般的教會都塞滿了做差事的人，
而興旺的教會卻塞滿了事奉的人。
而我們自己又如何呢？
若神叫你去事奉，就不要當作一件差事。
若你正在做差事，辭掉他而去一生事奉。
神不要我們在差事上打轉，卻願我們盡心盡性地事奉。
別人陪你走一里路，你願意陪人多走二里路嗎？
共勉之
差事與事奉
有些人在教會裡有差事，也有些人在教會裡事奉，分別在哪裡？
倘若你做是因為沒有人做，那就是差事。
倘若你做是因為要服事主，那就是事奉。
若有批評的時候你就不做，那就是差事。
若在批評下你仍不斷地做，那就是事奉。
若你是在不受影響下才做，那就是差事。
若你要犧牲也不停地去做，那就是事奉。
若你在當中很難得到滿足，那就是差事。
若你在當中時常得到滿足，那就是事奉。
若你所關心的是成功與否，那就是差事。
若你所關心的是盡忠與否，那就是事奉。
一般的教會都塞滿了做差事的人，
而興旺的教會卻塞滿了事奉的人。
而我們自己又如何呢？
若神叫你去事奉，就不要當作一件差事。
若你正在做差事，辭掉他而去一生事奉。
神不要我們在差事上打轉，卻願我們盡心盡性地事奉。
別人陪你走一里路，你願意陪人多走二里路嗎？
共勉之
星期五, 3月 18, 2005
These two letters ...........
I cannot use English nor Chinese to express the passion in my heart. The feeling is so strong that I don't think that's just a feeling, but URGE from heaven. I want to be a "Jesus Freak". I want to see the Heaven on Earth come down to Melb Uni. I want to see REVIVAL! It's not just a slogan or kind of movement, but a change of life, a change of generation and a change of history! Yes, the wonders, miracles in Acts IS going to happen here! Yes, the Holy Spirit IS going to come into campuses. Yes, there will be apostolic preaching and prophetic worship in Melb Uni. I know that it's still hard to imagine for me cos my faith is small. But I believe that God is the rock of my faith and will certainly reveal His wills and heart to everyone!!! BE ON FIRE and BE PREPARED!! Keep praying until it hurts!
Another letter~~~The emergin Jesus Revolutions on campuses
Hi all, - just a snippet of Jaeson ma's webpage. He is a 24 year old ABC(American Born Chinese), parents from Hong Kong. His was recently ordainedas a pastor under covering of a board consisting of Che Ann nad severalother prophetic and cutting edge ministry. Che Ann's ministry wasresponsible for the 1 million strong "The Call" movement that brought youngpeople to pray openly at Washington D.C.Jeremy Wong Read on.............
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Apostolic Preaching & Prophetic Worship on Campuses!!! (The emerging Jesus Revolutions on campuses)
I am writing this message because I sense strongly in my spirit God wants torelease another "GREAT AWAKENING" upon the university campuses of America.We are coming upon the wake of another "Jesus Freak" movement.
In the late1960's there was a major move of God among young hippies all overCalifornia. Radical hippie preachers like "Lonnie Frisbee" preached oncampuses, street corners, bars on Hollywood blvd, & baptized thousands ofhippies in the ocean beaches. What happened in those days was like it camestraight out of the book of Acts. "Signs, wonders & miracles, speaking intongues, thousands of young people swept into the kingdom of God, they wereliving in 24/7 communes together, sharing all things together and enjoyingfellowship while radical street preaching was bringing in the masses to Christ." Do it again Lord! I know You will & now is the time!
In the last 6 months the Holy Spirit has been impressing heavily upon me to see the book of Acts happen again on college campuses. There is too much "timidity" among Christian's every campus I visit. There is a fear of whatother's think. and it is justified by an "I don't want to offend othersmentality." It is compromise. The national average of Christian's on eachuniversity is 4% and more than 90% of those 4% come from Christianbackgrounds (Ivy Jungle Network: source). In other words, Christians aremainly reaching Christians on campus. If we don't see revival now, we will have a post-Christian generation tomorrow. It's time for radical Christianity. or should I say "normal Christianity" to be released on this generation with power.
I've been studying the book of Acts. The more I read, the more I am challenged. Church was never meant to be in a "temple" or a "building"
it was meant to be on the streets. It was meant to be in the marketplace, 24/7 where the people were. Where would Jesus be preaching if He were here today?Where would Peter and Paul be preaching if they were here today? I highly doubt a Sunday morning church service or the next large group fellowship meeting. I know exactly where they would be preaching.. in the middle of thecampus where all those students organizations are promoting their beliefs.It's sad, but there is too much preaching in the four walls of the church & there is not enough preaching to the lost. Preaching was meant for the lost!Yet we have turned the powerful art of preaching into "sermonizing." Lord have mercy & turn us back to the power of God unto salvation!"The Spirit of the Lord God is upon Me, Because the Lord has anointed Me to PREACH good news to the poor; He has sent Me to heal the brokenhearted, toproclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to those whoare bound; To proclaim the acceptable year of the Lord and the day ofvengeance of our God!" Isaiah 61:1-2
Where am I getting at? There is a move of God that will sweep thousands ofyoung people into His kingdom beginning on university campuses across California and then all over the United States of America. What is thismove? It will be a move of two things.
1. Prophetic Worship
2. Apostolic Preaching
Last week a student leader in our campus church network was inspired duringhis early morning quite times to bring his guitar to school. This studentgoes to San Jose State University. Not sure why, he went with his guitar tothe middle of campus where there was the most student traffic. He sensed theHoly Spirit wanted him to break out his guitar and worship at the top of Hislungs. He did. At first, he was scared out of his pants, but as he continuedto worship the manifest presence of God began to descend on the ground hewas worshipping on. He later told me that all he was asking God for thatmorning was one thing, "Lord I want to see HEAVEN ON EARTH come down on thiscampus!" Well, he got what he was praying for. As the Holy Spirit prophetically lead him to sing new songs by proclaiming Jesus over the campus, he sensed he was to pull out his Bible and read itout loud. With authority, he began to read out loud at the top of his lungs,the written Word of God. Students began to look at him, stare at him, evenlaugh at him. He didn't care because he was in the zone with Jesus. Asstudents gathered around to watch this Jesus freak, he began to read theScriptures and prayed for students the Holy Spirit was pinpointing out tohim. While praying for students, he saw a fraternity table with a fraternitybrother sitting there. This fraternity brother was completely gripped by theScriptures being read.
All of a sudden the frat brother left the table andwalked up to my friend. He said, "I don't know who you are, but while you were singing those songsto God, I felt the presence of God touch my body. You see I've been abackslidden Christian for over 3 years & this weekend our fraternity houseburnt down. Everything I've ever owned burned down in that house thisweekend, but there was only one thing left. my Bible!" This fraternity brother broke down under the conviction of the Holy Spiritand the spoken word of God. He encountered the presence of the living God in the middle of the day on a university campus while sitting outdoors at his fraternity table.
Now, that's what I'm talking about!"
Enter into His gates with thanksgiving, and into His courts with praise."Psalm 100:4
We don't need more persuasion evangelism in this postmodern generation. What we need is more presence evangelism, encounters with an Almighty God. How do we bring the presence? It is only through worship and prayer.
It's propheticworship that sings to Jesus from the heart, not from a power point slide.It's passionate, raw, un-plugged worship that touches the heart of God andends up touching the heart of a generation. I see thousands of new prophetic worship bands hitting the shores of thecollege campuses during the day and into the night. Bands of young radicalswho pull out their guitars, banjos, drums, all kinds of instruments andworshipping at the top of their lungs in the middle of campuses. It's aprophetic band of worshippers who aren't just singing the latest hit worshipsong, but they are worshipping in their own way, singing new songs, creatingnew lyrics, going all out, undignified like King David. It's a sound thateven the Christian world has never heard. They are the new sounds that comefrom the streets of heaven. Get ready because the sons of thunder arecoming! They worship in spirit and truth while students are passing by,while others are gathering at tables, while others are watching.the presenceof God comes. The lost have never heard this kind of worship, with suchpassion, with such beauty & attraction.
It's prophetic, for the spirit of prophecy is the testimony of Jesus. This prophetic presence all of suddeninvades and touches the hearts of young people & they begin to come underthe overwhelming love of God. This generation is waiting to see true passion. But where is it? True passion is only revealed when we passionately worship the passionate One.our suffering King Jesus. When this generationsees true worship, they will come to worship God!Prophetic worship is what ushers in the presence of God. But it's ApostolicPreaching that ushers in the power of God.
"And Joshua rose early in the morning, and the priests took up the ark ofthe Lord. Then seven priests bearing seven trumpets of rams' horns beforethe ark of the Lord went on continually and blew with the trumpets. And thearmed men went before them. But the rear guard came after the ark of theLord while the priests continued blowing the trumpets." Joshua 6:12-13
Joshua followed the strategy of the Lord. He sent out the priests (theprophetic worshippers) into battle first, while the armed guard (apostolicpreachers) stood prepared to attack. The presence of God must be ushered infirst, in order for His presence to anoint the army for war. This is thesame in relationship to prophetic worship and apostolic preaching for thecampuses. First of all, what is apostolic preaching?
Let the book of Acts explain."Now when they heard this, they were cut to the heart, and said to Peter andthe rest of the apostles, "Men and brethren, what shall we do?" Then Petersaid to them, "Repent and let everyone of you be baptized in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins; and you shall receive the gift ofthe Holy Spirit. "For the promise is to you and to your children, and to allwho are afar off, as many as the Lord our God will call." And with manyother words he testified and exhorted them, saying, "Be saved from thisperverse generation." Those who gladly received his word were baptized; andthat day about three thousand souls were added to them." Acts 2:37-41Apostolic preaching is the so powerful preaching of the Gospel that it cutsthe hearts of men resulting in deep repentance and mass conversions. Ithappened in Peter's day where we see three thousand coming to Christ in aday. We see 5,000 saved in a day later in the book of Acts and whole citiespushing their way into the kingdom through Paul's apostolic preaching. Yousay that happened in the days of old, but certainly not in highlysophisticated campus cultures like Yale or Stanford? Why not? It happened inthe 1st and 2nd Great Awakenings of America. Where Jonathan Edwards a young preacher who attended Yale preached an unapologetic message around 1734 called "Sinners in the hands of an angry God" that sent all of all of theEast Coast into repentance and ushered in a sweeping revival to a hell bentAmerica. In 1790's Yale University had totally forgotten about the greatrevival just years before. The student body had fallen into drunkenness,blasphemy and the majority of students were attacking the Christian faithbecause of a turn towards atheism & deism. During that dark hour, a youngman named "Timothy Dwight" the only Christian on campus began to preach onthe infallibility of God's Word and His moral standard. By the end of the year more than one half of the entire Yale University campus had turned inrepentance toward God. Do it again Lord! Surely, He will & now is the hour!
I'm passionate about this kind of preaching coming on the scene again,because I've experienced it. I use to travel from campus to campus preachingto crowds of students sometimes three & other times hundreds. There wasnever a time that the anointing of God to preach did not show up. No, whenthere is the preaching of the Gospel, God is obligated to show up, becauseHe is obligated to His mission. "Go, and make disciples of all nationsbaptizing them in the name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit, teaching themeverything I have taught you, and I am with you always unto the end of theage." (Matthew 28:18)I remember one time when I was at a junior college and a crowd of nearly 500students gathered the day after the school was saved from a planned bombattack. I got up in the middle of campus and began to preach how God hadspared their lives, how Jesus had saved them with a calling through hissuffering, death and resurrection. I challenged each of them to repent &turn to God. No one threw a stone at me, instead the entire crowd was deadsilent while I preached and many began to cry under the conviction andpresence of the Holy Spirit. There are more testimonies where we even saw a few hundred saved at one timeat San Jose State University after preaching the Gospel to a completelyunsaved crowd of students in the middle of campus. Just today at the university, while my two friends were leading prophetic worship outside on campus I began to join them in prayer. As I paced backand forth interceding for the lost students on campus out loud I could sense the anointing of the Holy Spirit increase. People thought I was crazy, who cares, but as I prayed out loud I began to preach. We were only there for anhour, we didn't draw a crowd of hundreds, but we did get to pray for atleast 4 students who randomly came up and asked for prayer. We did get toconverse afterwards with a bunch of fraternity and hip-hop looking brotherswho wanted to know more about Jesus. Whether it's one or one thousand, myquestion is what happened to the powerful preaching of the Gospel? Isn'tthis what Jesus did most of the time.preach? With signs, wonders andmiracles confirming the preaching of the Word. "For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ, for it is the power of God tosalvation for everyone who believes, for the Jew first and also for theGreek" Romans 1:16"How then shall they call on Him in whom they have not believed? And howshall they believe in Him of whom they have not heard? And how shall theyhear without a preacher?" Romans 10:14
Where are the apostolic preachers in this generation? Where are those whowill preach with authority and power in the Holy Spirit? Where are the Peter's and Paul's who preached with a holy fear of God that resulted inentire cities coming to Christ with signs and wonders confirming? There wasa Jonathan Edward for the 1st Great Awakening. There was a Timothy Dwight atYale University in the 2nd Great Awakening. Where are those who will step upto the plate, pray like no tomorrow and preach like there is only today inthis last Great Awakening? As the Son is shining, during the middle of the school day, I see universitycampuses with prophetic bands of young warriors worshipping with all theirheart and preaching with pure passion. These apostolic & prophetic warriorswill have big posters advertising. "FREE PRAYER, FREE DREAM INTERPRETAION,FREE PROPHECY.CAUSE GOD LIKES YOU!" I SEE OTHER WARRIOR BANDS WITH "THEPASSION OF THE CHRIST" PLAYING AS A BACKDROP AS THEY PREACH.PASSING OUTTESTIMONIES AND GOSPEL TRACKS EXPLAINING THE SUFFERING, DEATH ANDRESURRECTION OF THE PASSIONATE SON OF GOD! I SEE YOUNG RADICALS CARRYING AHEAVY WOODEN CROSS WITH THEM AS THEY WORSHIP & PREACH THE GOSPEL WITH ITFROM CAMPUS TO CAMPUS.I SEE A HOLY REVOLUTION. There is going to be an outbreak, an uncontrollable movement of God.aspontaneous revival hitting the campuses of America once again. There willbe hundreds of students here, & thousands of students there, and smallpockets of students everywhere having Church in the university courtyard.Yes, it's church without walls, it's a holy movement of God that can't be touched or defined by some method of evangelism or some slick small groupprogram. No church building can contain it and no conference can explain it.It's God or nothing. There is a nameless and faceless army God is raising upat this hour on campuses across America.
Do you hear the calling? Will you be willing to lay down your reputation, your comfort zone, your Christianbubble, possibly your very life to see revival on your college campus? Nowis the time, now is the hour. Get on your face and pray until it hurts.Worship until He comes. Then get up and preach unapologetically & watch ifGod shows up!
I'm praying to see HEAVEN ON EARTH on every campus in America.REVIVE THE CAMPUSES OF AMERICA LORD! REVIVE THIS GENERATION LORD! REVIVE OURHEARTS AGAIN AND USHER IN THE LAST AND GREATEST AWAKENING THIS NATION HASEVER SEEN.LET THE JESUS REVOLUTION BEGIN..
Praying for campus revival,Jaeson Ma
www.campuschurch.net(If you are one who desires revival & are committed to lead out in propheticworship and apostolic preaching on your university campus
email:coach@campuschurch.net)Feb 10 2005
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Apostolic Preaching & Prophetic Worship on Campuses!!! (The emerging Jesus Revolutions on campuses)
I am writing this message because I sense strongly in my spirit God wants torelease another "GREAT AWAKENING" upon the university campuses of America.We are coming upon the wake of another "Jesus Freak" movement.
In the late1960's there was a major move of God among young hippies all overCalifornia. Radical hippie preachers like "Lonnie Frisbee" preached oncampuses, street corners, bars on Hollywood blvd, & baptized thousands ofhippies in the ocean beaches. What happened in those days was like it camestraight out of the book of Acts. "Signs, wonders & miracles, speaking intongues, thousands of young people swept into the kingdom of God, they wereliving in 24/7 communes together, sharing all things together and enjoyingfellowship while radical street preaching was bringing in the masses to Christ." Do it again Lord! I know You will & now is the time!
In the last 6 months the Holy Spirit has been impressing heavily upon me to see the book of Acts happen again on college campuses. There is too much "timidity" among Christian's every campus I visit. There is a fear of whatother's think. and it is justified by an "I don't want to offend othersmentality." It is compromise. The national average of Christian's on eachuniversity is 4% and more than 90% of those 4% come from Christianbackgrounds (Ivy Jungle Network: source). In other words, Christians aremainly reaching Christians on campus. If we don't see revival now, we will have a post-Christian generation tomorrow. It's time for radical Christianity. or should I say "normal Christianity" to be released on this generation with power.
I've been studying the book of Acts. The more I read, the more I am challenged. Church was never meant to be in a "temple" or a "building"
it was meant to be on the streets. It was meant to be in the marketplace, 24/7 where the people were. Where would Jesus be preaching if He were here today?Where would Peter and Paul be preaching if they were here today? I highly doubt a Sunday morning church service or the next large group fellowship meeting. I know exactly where they would be preaching.. in the middle of thecampus where all those students organizations are promoting their beliefs.It's sad, but there is too much preaching in the four walls of the church & there is not enough preaching to the lost. Preaching was meant for the lost!Yet we have turned the powerful art of preaching into "sermonizing." Lord have mercy & turn us back to the power of God unto salvation!"The Spirit of the Lord God is upon Me, Because the Lord has anointed Me to PREACH good news to the poor; He has sent Me to heal the brokenhearted, toproclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to those whoare bound; To proclaim the acceptable year of the Lord and the day ofvengeance of our God!" Isaiah 61:1-2
Where am I getting at? There is a move of God that will sweep thousands ofyoung people into His kingdom beginning on university campuses across California and then all over the United States of America. What is thismove? It will be a move of two things.
1. Prophetic Worship
2. Apostolic Preaching
Last week a student leader in our campus church network was inspired duringhis early morning quite times to bring his guitar to school. This studentgoes to San Jose State University. Not sure why, he went with his guitar tothe middle of campus where there was the most student traffic. He sensed theHoly Spirit wanted him to break out his guitar and worship at the top of Hislungs. He did. At first, he was scared out of his pants, but as he continuedto worship the manifest presence of God began to descend on the ground hewas worshipping on. He later told me that all he was asking God for thatmorning was one thing, "Lord I want to see HEAVEN ON EARTH come down on thiscampus!" Well, he got what he was praying for. As the Holy Spirit prophetically lead him to sing new songs by proclaiming Jesus over the campus, he sensed he was to pull out his Bible and read itout loud. With authority, he began to read out loud at the top of his lungs,the written Word of God. Students began to look at him, stare at him, evenlaugh at him. He didn't care because he was in the zone with Jesus. Asstudents gathered around to watch this Jesus freak, he began to read theScriptures and prayed for students the Holy Spirit was pinpointing out tohim. While praying for students, he saw a fraternity table with a fraternitybrother sitting there. This fraternity brother was completely gripped by theScriptures being read.
All of a sudden the frat brother left the table andwalked up to my friend. He said, "I don't know who you are, but while you were singing those songsto God, I felt the presence of God touch my body. You see I've been abackslidden Christian for over 3 years & this weekend our fraternity houseburnt down. Everything I've ever owned burned down in that house thisweekend, but there was only one thing left. my Bible!" This fraternity brother broke down under the conviction of the Holy Spiritand the spoken word of God. He encountered the presence of the living God in the middle of the day on a university campus while sitting outdoors at his fraternity table.
Now, that's what I'm talking about!"
Enter into His gates with thanksgiving, and into His courts with praise."Psalm 100:4
We don't need more persuasion evangelism in this postmodern generation. What we need is more presence evangelism, encounters with an Almighty God. How do we bring the presence? It is only through worship and prayer.
It's propheticworship that sings to Jesus from the heart, not from a power point slide.It's passionate, raw, un-plugged worship that touches the heart of God andends up touching the heart of a generation. I see thousands of new prophetic worship bands hitting the shores of thecollege campuses during the day and into the night. Bands of young radicalswho pull out their guitars, banjos, drums, all kinds of instruments andworshipping at the top of their lungs in the middle of campuses. It's aprophetic band of worshippers who aren't just singing the latest hit worshipsong, but they are worshipping in their own way, singing new songs, creatingnew lyrics, going all out, undignified like King David. It's a sound thateven the Christian world has never heard. They are the new sounds that comefrom the streets of heaven. Get ready because the sons of thunder arecoming! They worship in spirit and truth while students are passing by,while others are gathering at tables, while others are watching.the presenceof God comes. The lost have never heard this kind of worship, with suchpassion, with such beauty & attraction.
It's prophetic, for the spirit of prophecy is the testimony of Jesus. This prophetic presence all of suddeninvades and touches the hearts of young people & they begin to come underthe overwhelming love of God. This generation is waiting to see true passion. But where is it? True passion is only revealed when we passionately worship the passionate One.our suffering King Jesus. When this generationsees true worship, they will come to worship God!Prophetic worship is what ushers in the presence of God. But it's ApostolicPreaching that ushers in the power of God.
"And Joshua rose early in the morning, and the priests took up the ark ofthe Lord. Then seven priests bearing seven trumpets of rams' horns beforethe ark of the Lord went on continually and blew with the trumpets. And thearmed men went before them. But the rear guard came after the ark of theLord while the priests continued blowing the trumpets." Joshua 6:12-13
Joshua followed the strategy of the Lord. He sent out the priests (theprophetic worshippers) into battle first, while the armed guard (apostolicpreachers) stood prepared to attack. The presence of God must be ushered infirst, in order for His presence to anoint the army for war. This is thesame in relationship to prophetic worship and apostolic preaching for thecampuses. First of all, what is apostolic preaching?
Let the book of Acts explain."Now when they heard this, they were cut to the heart, and said to Peter andthe rest of the apostles, "Men and brethren, what shall we do?" Then Petersaid to them, "Repent and let everyone of you be baptized in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins; and you shall receive the gift ofthe Holy Spirit. "For the promise is to you and to your children, and to allwho are afar off, as many as the Lord our God will call." And with manyother words he testified and exhorted them, saying, "Be saved from thisperverse generation." Those who gladly received his word were baptized; andthat day about three thousand souls were added to them." Acts 2:37-41Apostolic preaching is the so powerful preaching of the Gospel that it cutsthe hearts of men resulting in deep repentance and mass conversions. Ithappened in Peter's day where we see three thousand coming to Christ in aday. We see 5,000 saved in a day later in the book of Acts and whole citiespushing their way into the kingdom through Paul's apostolic preaching. Yousay that happened in the days of old, but certainly not in highlysophisticated campus cultures like Yale or Stanford? Why not? It happened inthe 1st and 2nd Great Awakenings of America. Where Jonathan Edwards a young preacher who attended Yale preached an unapologetic message around 1734 called "Sinners in the hands of an angry God" that sent all of all of theEast Coast into repentance and ushered in a sweeping revival to a hell bentAmerica. In 1790's Yale University had totally forgotten about the greatrevival just years before. The student body had fallen into drunkenness,blasphemy and the majority of students were attacking the Christian faithbecause of a turn towards atheism & deism. During that dark hour, a youngman named "Timothy Dwight" the only Christian on campus began to preach onthe infallibility of God's Word and His moral standard. By the end of the year more than one half of the entire Yale University campus had turned inrepentance toward God. Do it again Lord! Surely, He will & now is the hour!
I'm passionate about this kind of preaching coming on the scene again,because I've experienced it. I use to travel from campus to campus preachingto crowds of students sometimes three & other times hundreds. There wasnever a time that the anointing of God to preach did not show up. No, whenthere is the preaching of the Gospel, God is obligated to show up, becauseHe is obligated to His mission. "Go, and make disciples of all nationsbaptizing them in the name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit, teaching themeverything I have taught you, and I am with you always unto the end of theage." (Matthew 28:18)I remember one time when I was at a junior college and a crowd of nearly 500students gathered the day after the school was saved from a planned bombattack. I got up in the middle of campus and began to preach how God hadspared their lives, how Jesus had saved them with a calling through hissuffering, death and resurrection. I challenged each of them to repent &turn to God. No one threw a stone at me, instead the entire crowd was deadsilent while I preached and many began to cry under the conviction andpresence of the Holy Spirit. There are more testimonies where we even saw a few hundred saved at one timeat San Jose State University after preaching the Gospel to a completelyunsaved crowd of students in the middle of campus. Just today at the university, while my two friends were leading prophetic worship outside on campus I began to join them in prayer. As I paced backand forth interceding for the lost students on campus out loud I could sense the anointing of the Holy Spirit increase. People thought I was crazy, who cares, but as I prayed out loud I began to preach. We were only there for anhour, we didn't draw a crowd of hundreds, but we did get to pray for atleast 4 students who randomly came up and asked for prayer. We did get toconverse afterwards with a bunch of fraternity and hip-hop looking brotherswho wanted to know more about Jesus. Whether it's one or one thousand, myquestion is what happened to the powerful preaching of the Gospel? Isn'tthis what Jesus did most of the time.preach? With signs, wonders andmiracles confirming the preaching of the Word. "For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ, for it is the power of God tosalvation for everyone who believes, for the Jew first and also for theGreek" Romans 1:16"How then shall they call on Him in whom they have not believed? And howshall they believe in Him of whom they have not heard? And how shall theyhear without a preacher?" Romans 10:14
Where are the apostolic preachers in this generation? Where are those whowill preach with authority and power in the Holy Spirit? Where are the Peter's and Paul's who preached with a holy fear of God that resulted inentire cities coming to Christ with signs and wonders confirming? There wasa Jonathan Edward for the 1st Great Awakening. There was a Timothy Dwight atYale University in the 2nd Great Awakening. Where are those who will step upto the plate, pray like no tomorrow and preach like there is only today inthis last Great Awakening? As the Son is shining, during the middle of the school day, I see universitycampuses with prophetic bands of young warriors worshipping with all theirheart and preaching with pure passion. These apostolic & prophetic warriorswill have big posters advertising. "FREE PRAYER, FREE DREAM INTERPRETAION,FREE PROPHECY.CAUSE GOD LIKES YOU!" I SEE OTHER WARRIOR BANDS WITH "THEPASSION OF THE CHRIST" PLAYING AS A BACKDROP AS THEY PREACH.PASSING OUTTESTIMONIES AND GOSPEL TRACKS EXPLAINING THE SUFFERING, DEATH ANDRESURRECTION OF THE PASSIONATE SON OF GOD! I SEE YOUNG RADICALS CARRYING AHEAVY WOODEN CROSS WITH THEM AS THEY WORSHIP & PREACH THE GOSPEL WITH ITFROM CAMPUS TO CAMPUS.I SEE A HOLY REVOLUTION. There is going to be an outbreak, an uncontrollable movement of God.aspontaneous revival hitting the campuses of America once again. There willbe hundreds of students here, & thousands of students there, and smallpockets of students everywhere having Church in the university courtyard.Yes, it's church without walls, it's a holy movement of God that can't be touched or defined by some method of evangelism or some slick small groupprogram. No church building can contain it and no conference can explain it.It's God or nothing. There is a nameless and faceless army God is raising upat this hour on campuses across America.
Do you hear the calling? Will you be willing to lay down your reputation, your comfort zone, your Christianbubble, possibly your very life to see revival on your college campus? Nowis the time, now is the hour. Get on your face and pray until it hurts.Worship until He comes. Then get up and preach unapologetically & watch ifGod shows up!
I'm praying to see HEAVEN ON EARTH on every campus in America.REVIVE THE CAMPUSES OF AMERICA LORD! REVIVE THIS GENERATION LORD! REVIVE OURHEARTS AGAIN AND USHER IN THE LAST AND GREATEST AWAKENING THIS NATION HASEVER SEEN.LET THE JESUS REVOLUTION BEGIN..
Praying for campus revival,Jaeson Ma
www.campuschurch.net(If you are one who desires revival & are committed to lead out in propheticworship and apostolic preaching on your university campus
email:coach@campuschurch.net)Feb 10 2005
Prayer from Ps Ma
Jaeson Ma的禱告：
「彰顯你的榮耀，在這個時刻，從東西南北彰顯。打開天上的門，降下復興的洪流，甦醒你的軍隊，興起你的先知。到了時候，2000名代禱者要聚集禁食禱告。如同以西結所說站立在破口中的守望者。
「把你對這個國家與世代的心意打開。讓我們用你的心意來看這個國家。釋放約珥的軍隊，讓你的零澆灌在凡有血氣的。使兩代復和，釋放三代復興的啟示，就是亞伯拉罕、以撒、雅各三代的復興。現在就是你的時間，我們要為你名的緣故奪回這個國家，奪回仇敵的城門。你在創世之前，就已經命定這個國家是基督教國家，現在澆灌雙倍的恩膏在這個國家。將你的恩雨降在這荒涼的地土。禱告殿要被興起，讓這個國家舉起聖潔的手，潔淨這個國家拜偶像的罪。求你教導我們明白你末世的軍隊。如同哈巴谷先知所說：寫下這異象，不再遲延。
「今天晚上破碎我們的心，為這失喪的靈魂破碎我們的心。你的心是願意萬人得救，不願一人沈淪。
「今天加給我們一個超自然的信心，讓我們真知道這個國家是屬於你的。我們知道、我們知道，這個國家是一個基督教的國家。現在神正在向你啟示。你會看見、明白、接受、並進入這個啟示中間。這不僅僅是一個禱告中的盼望而已。在十年內，你會看見在阿根廷、在南美洲所發生的復興，台灣要雙倍的經歷這樣的復興。所有的偶像要仆倒。你說這是不可能的，但在神沒有不可能的事。就如同約西亞王一樣，潔淨了整個國家的偶像。我們宣告，這個國家是基督的新婦。你永遠不再需要恐懼，你要活在神的愛中。奉主耶穌基督的名禱告。阿們！」
主題經文：約珥2章
你們要在錫安吹角，在我聖山吹出大聲。國中的居民都要發顫；因為耶和華的日子將到，已經臨近。那日是黑暗、幽冥、密雲、烏黑的日子，好像晨光鋪滿山嶺。有一隊蝗蟲〔原文是民〕又大又強；從來沒有這樣的，以後直到萬代也必沒有。牠們前面如火燒滅，後面如火焰燒盡。未到以前，地如伊甸園；過去以後，成了荒涼的曠野；沒有一樣能躲避牠們的。牠們的形狀如馬，奔跑如馬兵。在山頂蹦跳的響聲如車輛的響聲，又如火焰燒碎楷的響聲，好像強盛的民擺陣預備打仗。牠們一來，眾民傷慟，臉都變色。牠們如勇士奔跑，像戰士爬城；各都步行，不亂隊伍。彼此並不擁擠，向前各行其路，直闖兵器，不偏左右。牠們蹦上城，躥上牆，爬上房屋，進入窗戶如同盜賊。牠們一來，地震天動，日月昏暗，星宿無光。耶和華在他軍旅前發聲，他的隊伍甚大；成就他命的是強盛者。因為耶和華的日子大而可畏，誰能當得起呢？（珥2:1-11）
神正在興起一個年輕人的軍隊，是在末世審判之前要出現的軍隊，他們要改變列國。
整個國家是可以被改變的。國豈能一日而生？民豈能一時而產？因為錫安一劬勞便生下兒女，這樣的事誰曾聽見？誰曾看見呢？（賽66:8）神要將國家當作產業賜給年輕的世代。全球的年輕人都開始呼求神改變他們的國家。詩篇2篇的禱告就要成就。
美國的年輕人從1970年開始厲害的被仇敵攻擊，大概有5000萬名嬰孩被墮胎。每年全世界大概有1000萬嬰孩被墮胎死亡。犯罪率與其他糟糕的統計數字，都加倍增加。為什麼？因為仇敵知道這個世代要得著神給他們的產業。在摩西的日子、在耶穌的日子，仇敵都試圖殺害嬰孩。
我代表美國一個青少年的禱告運動The Call。但今天，我要讓你們明白，目前神在全球興起的年輕人禱告運動從開始就是與台灣是相關的。
Lou Engle牧師兩次異夢，孕育開始了美國The Call青少年禱告運動。這兩個夢都與台灣有關。青少年禱告呼求開始於一個台灣來的年輕人團體。他在夢中看見台灣，看見廟宇被禱告殿所取代。神用可聽的聲音告訴他：「聚集年輕人禱告。」神要興起年輕人起來禁食禱告，興起廿四小時晝夜的禱告殿，這會使得各地的廟宇倒塌。
在九個月的籌備後，The Call在Washington D. C.於2000年聚集了50萬父母親與兒女一起禁食禱告。後來總共有七次的聚集，總共有100萬人次參與這些聚集。每次聚集，在不同的關鍵地點，我們綑綁不同的屬靈勢力。例如，在德州我們綑綁「墮胎」，在加州綑綁「色情」與「同性戀」。
第一優先順序是要建立廿四小時禱告殿；為萬民禱告的殿。當我們晝夜禱告的時候，神就要在我們當中申冤。（路18:7）
當Jaeson在2004年底被按立的時候，他的牧師突然用5分鐘向他發預言提到台灣。兩個星期後，他就第一次來到台灣服事（2004/12）。現在正是神的時候。在台灣年輕人的聚會中，年輕人進入劬勞的禱告中。在一個聚會中，年輕人為他們的校園禱告到晚上12點。這是神所定的時間。
這些事情為什麼與台灣有關，不僅是因為台灣出現在我的牧師的夢中，也是因為你能想到有更好的地方，可以彰顯神的榮耀，讓偶像與廟宇的勢力仆倒在神禱告殿的能力下嗎？
耶和華說：雖然如此，你們應當禁食、哭泣、悲哀，一心歸向我。（珥2:12）我們禁食禱告，才能釋放這個約珥的軍隊。讓「大規模禁食禱告聚集」拯救我們的世代。我們需要兩代、三代一起禱告。父親的心轉向兒女，兒女的心就會轉向神。兩個世代一起來禱告。神要興起年輕的代禱者。一個三代的復興要臨到。
到那日子，耶和華就為自己的地發熱心，憐恤他的百姓。耶和華應允他的百姓說：我必賜給你們五穀、新酒，和油，使你們飽足；我也不再使你們受列國的羞辱；卻要使北方來的軍隊遠離你們，將他們趕到乾旱荒廢之地：前隊趕入東海，後隊趕入西海；因為他們所行的大惡〔原文是事〕，臭氣上升，腥味騰空。地土啊，不要懼怕；要歡喜快樂，因為耶和華行了大事。田野的走獸啊，不要懼怕；因為，曠野的草發生，樹木結果，無花果樹、葡萄樹也都效力。錫安的民哪，你們要快樂，為耶和華─你們的 神歡喜；因他賜給你們合宜的秋雨，為你們降下甘霖，就是秋雨、春雨，和先前一樣。禾場必滿了麥子；酒醡與油醡必有新酒和油盈溢。我打發到你們中間的大軍隊，就是蝗蟲、蝻子、螞蚱、剪蟲，那些年所吃的，我要補還你們。你們必多吃而得飽足，就讚美為你們行奇妙事之耶和華─你們 神的名。我的百姓必永遠不至羞愧。你們必知道我是在以色列中間，又知道我是耶和華─你們的 神；在我以外並無別神。我的百姓必永遠不致羞愧。（珥2:18-27）神正在降下春雨（後雨）在台灣的年輕人當中。神正在興起一個革命運動，擄掠仇敵，因為這國要成我主基督的國。
在這次來台灣之前，香港的同工分享一個異夢有關台北。在夢中，他看見兩個非基督徒在台大附近交談。其中一個說，最近城市的犯罪都不見了。另一個說：為什麼呢？他就回答：因為基督徒的關係。接著，他就夢見，在台大校園當中，有基督徒在午餐的時候去餵養有需要的人。
所有的革命運動、宣教運動、復興，幾乎都是開始於校園當中。幾乎都是因為一群年輕人開始聚集在校園中禱告，極大的改變就從這一小群人開始了。香港同工的夢，讓我們明白，年輕人會改變整個城市與國家，如同詩篇所說：在我敵人面前，你為我擺設筵席。（詩23:5a）
這些事情怎麼可能發生呢？是因為年輕人開始禱告。從上次我來到之後，在台北靈糧堂已經有十幾個禱告小組在校園中開始。當我們給孩子們轉化國家的異象時，他們就開始成立禱告小組為他們的校園與國家開始禱告。一個革命已經開始，但以理、以斯帖正在被興起中。他們要改寫這個國家的歷史，每個領域、憲法，都要被改寫。
一個月前，我在夢中好像走在阿根廷一個美麗的海灘。阿根廷在過去十年有極大的復興。我在夢中與年輕樣子的Cindy Jacob走在一起。前面有海灘，後面有山。Cindy說，這海灘非常漂亮，這些海浪就像是復興。可是，Jaeson在夢中回答說：我知道一個更漂亮的海灘。這兩天，我參加一個青年牧者合一退修會，當我早上醒來時，我打開窗戶，我看見外面的海灘，就是與我夢中所看見的一模一樣。因此，我完全的明白了，比阿根廷更大的復興要來到台灣，神要將阿根廷復興的雙倍恩膏降臨在台灣的年輕人身上。阿根廷的年輕人如何得著阿根廷，台灣的年輕人也要得著台灣。
阿根廷的復興如何開始的？在50年前，因為天使的顯現與吩咐，50個年輕人聚集在一起為國家復興禁食禱告50天。第49天，天使再次顯現，說：猶大的獅子已經被釋放，仇敵已經被綑綁。復興就開始臨到阿根廷，所多大型佈道會因此展開，國家的轉化因此開始。
台灣必須領受一個國家轉化的異象。更大的事情要發生在這個國家。
我向神有三個禱告，我相信你們也需要這樣為這裡的年輕人禱告：
1. 禱告殿的復興。神會在末世興起禱告殿，神的榮耀彰顯，外邦人也能看見。過去在一個世紀內，超過過去所有得救的人數進入神的國家。神要興起一個台灣的青少年禱告運動，每個校園中都要看見禱告小組、禱告殿被設立。
2. 社會的改革。神要讓年輕人成為這世代的但以理及以斯帖，政治、經濟、體育、媒體、教育，都要看見神掌權在其中。年輕人會掌權在國家的每個領域中間。
3. 新約教會的恢復。一個榮耀的教會，所有的人都被動員起來。當父母親願意相信、信任他們，給他們力量去做他們被神呼召所作的事情，他們就會被興起成為使徒、先知、傳福音、教師、與牧師。當父母親向兒女轉回，這樣的事情就要發生在我們當中。
神在2004/1-2用三個夢向Jaeson啟示。三個夢他各自夢到他與Bob Weiner, Mike Bickle, Lou Engle之間的互動。Bob Weiner帶來70年代校園的復興，也鼓勵所有的畢業生進入社會每個領域中為神掌權；在夢中他兩次為Jaeson禱告，一次為右邊（復興）、一次為左邊（改革）。Mike Bickle是IhoP（國際禱告殿）的負責人；在夢中他要Jaeson跳上他的車子，代表需要以廿四小時禱告殿做為復興與改革的基礎，才能帶出後者。Lou Engle是The Call運動的屬靈孕育者，在夢中他們兩個人在一上一下交錯的兩個電梯中相遇，Lou Engle向上（代表代禱），後面跟著一些成人與年輕人，Jaeson向下（代禱未來的復興與改革），後面跟著許多年輕人。這三個夢讓Jaeson明白：
1. 你不能只有復興而沒有改革。
2. 在你進入復興與改革，你必須先看見各地的廿四小時禱告殿被興起。
3. 所有的夢中都有兩代牽涉在其中。
在末世的時候，以利亞的靈要澆灌下來，使父母與兒女的互相轉向。當這樣的事情發生的時候，兩代一起和好、一起禱告，進入廿四小時的禱告中間，咒詛要被破除，我們就會看見極大的收割以及社會的改變發生。
禱告：「現在是成人代禱者與年輕人連結起來的時候。我們悔改我們過去對年輕人的不信任。現在是除去一切害怕的時候到了。求神使兩代復和。求神興起禱告的殿，與所有的廟宇與偶像爭戰。興起年輕人的軍隊，在這個時刻、在這個國家當中。將禱告的靈澆灌在他們當中，給他們一個異象，可以轉化整個國家，可以毀壞一切在校園與國家中的堅固營壘與意識型態。求神拯救這個國家97%未信者的靈魂，除去這中間的蒙蔽與帕子。釋放約珥的軍隊，現在就開口向神呼求，求神現在就在這個國家中生出這個約珥的軍隊來。讓我們向神呼求。當我們更多禱告，他們就更多的被生出來。」
流淚撒種的，必歡呼收割！（詩126:5）
神要成就以下這些經文在我們當中。
〔所羅門上行之詩。〕若不是耶和華建造房屋，建造的人就枉然勞力；若不是耶和華看守城池，看守的人就枉然警醒。你們清晨早起，夜晚安歇，吃勞碌得來的飯，本是枉然；惟有耶和華所親愛的，必叫他安然睡覺。兒女是耶和華所賜的產業；所懷的胎是他所給的賞賜。少年時所生的兒女好像勇士手中的箭。箭袋充滿的人便為有福；他們在城門口和仇敵說話的時候，必不至於羞愧。（詩127:1-5）
「彰顯你的榮耀，在這個時刻，從東西南北彰顯。打開天上的門，降下復興的洪流，甦醒你的軍隊，興起你的先知。到了時候，2000名代禱者要聚集禁食禱告。如同以西結所說站立在破口中的守望者。
「把你對這個國家與世代的心意打開。讓我們用你的心意來看這個國家。釋放約珥的軍隊，讓你的零澆灌在凡有血氣的。使兩代復和，釋放三代復興的啟示，就是亞伯拉罕、以撒、雅各三代的復興。現在就是你的時間，我們要為你名的緣故奪回這個國家，奪回仇敵的城門。你在創世之前，就已經命定這個國家是基督教國家，現在澆灌雙倍的恩膏在這個國家。將你的恩雨降在這荒涼的地土。禱告殿要被興起，讓這個國家舉起聖潔的手，潔淨這個國家拜偶像的罪。求你教導我們明白你末世的軍隊。如同哈巴谷先知所說：寫下這異象，不再遲延。
「今天晚上破碎我們的心，為這失喪的靈魂破碎我們的心。你的心是願意萬人得救，不願一人沈淪。
「今天加給我們一個超自然的信心，讓我們真知道這個國家是屬於你的。我們知道、我們知道，這個國家是一個基督教的國家。現在神正在向你啟示。你會看見、明白、接受、並進入這個啟示中間。這不僅僅是一個禱告中的盼望而已。在十年內，你會看見在阿根廷、在南美洲所發生的復興，台灣要雙倍的經歷這樣的復興。所有的偶像要仆倒。你說這是不可能的，但在神沒有不可能的事。就如同約西亞王一樣，潔淨了整個國家的偶像。我們宣告，這個國家是基督的新婦。你永遠不再需要恐懼，你要活在神的愛中。奉主耶穌基督的名禱告。阿們！」
主題經文：約珥2章
你們要在錫安吹角，在我聖山吹出大聲。國中的居民都要發顫；因為耶和華的日子將到，已經臨近。那日是黑暗、幽冥、密雲、烏黑的日子，好像晨光鋪滿山嶺。有一隊蝗蟲〔原文是民〕又大又強；從來沒有這樣的，以後直到萬代也必沒有。牠們前面如火燒滅，後面如火焰燒盡。未到以前，地如伊甸園；過去以後，成了荒涼的曠野；沒有一樣能躲避牠們的。牠們的形狀如馬，奔跑如馬兵。在山頂蹦跳的響聲如車輛的響聲，又如火焰燒碎楷的響聲，好像強盛的民擺陣預備打仗。牠們一來，眾民傷慟，臉都變色。牠們如勇士奔跑，像戰士爬城；各都步行，不亂隊伍。彼此並不擁擠，向前各行其路，直闖兵器，不偏左右。牠們蹦上城，躥上牆，爬上房屋，進入窗戶如同盜賊。牠們一來，地震天動，日月昏暗，星宿無光。耶和華在他軍旅前發聲，他的隊伍甚大；成就他命的是強盛者。因為耶和華的日子大而可畏，誰能當得起呢？（珥2:1-11）
神正在興起一個年輕人的軍隊，是在末世審判之前要出現的軍隊，他們要改變列國。
整個國家是可以被改變的。國豈能一日而生？民豈能一時而產？因為錫安一劬勞便生下兒女，這樣的事誰曾聽見？誰曾看見呢？（賽66:8）神要將國家當作產業賜給年輕的世代。全球的年輕人都開始呼求神改變他們的國家。詩篇2篇的禱告就要成就。
美國的年輕人從1970年開始厲害的被仇敵攻擊，大概有5000萬名嬰孩被墮胎。每年全世界大概有1000萬嬰孩被墮胎死亡。犯罪率與其他糟糕的統計數字，都加倍增加。為什麼？因為仇敵知道這個世代要得著神給他們的產業。在摩西的日子、在耶穌的日子，仇敵都試圖殺害嬰孩。
我代表美國一個青少年的禱告運動The Call。但今天，我要讓你們明白，目前神在全球興起的年輕人禱告運動從開始就是與台灣是相關的。
Lou Engle牧師兩次異夢，孕育開始了美國The Call青少年禱告運動。這兩個夢都與台灣有關。青少年禱告呼求開始於一個台灣來的年輕人團體。他在夢中看見台灣，看見廟宇被禱告殿所取代。神用可聽的聲音告訴他：「聚集年輕人禱告。」神要興起年輕人起來禁食禱告，興起廿四小時晝夜的禱告殿，這會使得各地的廟宇倒塌。
在九個月的籌備後，The Call在Washington D. C.於2000年聚集了50萬父母親與兒女一起禁食禱告。後來總共有七次的聚集，總共有100萬人次參與這些聚集。每次聚集，在不同的關鍵地點，我們綑綁不同的屬靈勢力。例如，在德州我們綑綁「墮胎」，在加州綑綁「色情」與「同性戀」。
第一優先順序是要建立廿四小時禱告殿；為萬民禱告的殿。當我們晝夜禱告的時候，神就要在我們當中申冤。（路18:7）
當Jaeson在2004年底被按立的時候，他的牧師突然用5分鐘向他發預言提到台灣。兩個星期後，他就第一次來到台灣服事（2004/12）。現在正是神的時候。在台灣年輕人的聚會中，年輕人進入劬勞的禱告中。在一個聚會中，年輕人為他們的校園禱告到晚上12點。這是神所定的時間。
這些事情為什麼與台灣有關，不僅是因為台灣出現在我的牧師的夢中，也是因為你能想到有更好的地方，可以彰顯神的榮耀，讓偶像與廟宇的勢力仆倒在神禱告殿的能力下嗎？
耶和華說：雖然如此，你們應當禁食、哭泣、悲哀，一心歸向我。（珥2:12）我們禁食禱告，才能釋放這個約珥的軍隊。讓「大規模禁食禱告聚集」拯救我們的世代。我們需要兩代、三代一起禱告。父親的心轉向兒女，兒女的心就會轉向神。兩個世代一起來禱告。神要興起年輕的代禱者。一個三代的復興要臨到。
到那日子，耶和華就為自己的地發熱心，憐恤他的百姓。耶和華應允他的百姓說：我必賜給你們五穀、新酒，和油，使你們飽足；我也不再使你們受列國的羞辱；卻要使北方來的軍隊遠離你們，將他們趕到乾旱荒廢之地：前隊趕入東海，後隊趕入西海；因為他們所行的大惡〔原文是事〕，臭氣上升，腥味騰空。地土啊，不要懼怕；要歡喜快樂，因為耶和華行了大事。田野的走獸啊，不要懼怕；因為，曠野的草發生，樹木結果，無花果樹、葡萄樹也都效力。錫安的民哪，你們要快樂，為耶和華─你們的 神歡喜；因他賜給你們合宜的秋雨，為你們降下甘霖，就是秋雨、春雨，和先前一樣。禾場必滿了麥子；酒醡與油醡必有新酒和油盈溢。我打發到你們中間的大軍隊，就是蝗蟲、蝻子、螞蚱、剪蟲，那些年所吃的，我要補還你們。你們必多吃而得飽足，就讚美為你們行奇妙事之耶和華─你們 神的名。我的百姓必永遠不至羞愧。你們必知道我是在以色列中間，又知道我是耶和華─你們的 神；在我以外並無別神。我的百姓必永遠不致羞愧。（珥2:18-27）神正在降下春雨（後雨）在台灣的年輕人當中。神正在興起一個革命運動，擄掠仇敵，因為這國要成我主基督的國。
在這次來台灣之前，香港的同工分享一個異夢有關台北。在夢中，他看見兩個非基督徒在台大附近交談。其中一個說，最近城市的犯罪都不見了。另一個說：為什麼呢？他就回答：因為基督徒的關係。接著，他就夢見，在台大校園當中，有基督徒在午餐的時候去餵養有需要的人。
所有的革命運動、宣教運動、復興，幾乎都是開始於校園當中。幾乎都是因為一群年輕人開始聚集在校園中禱告，極大的改變就從這一小群人開始了。香港同工的夢，讓我們明白，年輕人會改變整個城市與國家，如同詩篇所說：在我敵人面前，你為我擺設筵席。（詩23:5a）
這些事情怎麼可能發生呢？是因為年輕人開始禱告。從上次我來到之後，在台北靈糧堂已經有十幾個禱告小組在校園中開始。當我們給孩子們轉化國家的異象時，他們就開始成立禱告小組為他們的校園與國家開始禱告。一個革命已經開始，但以理、以斯帖正在被興起中。他們要改寫這個國家的歷史，每個領域、憲法，都要被改寫。
一個月前，我在夢中好像走在阿根廷一個美麗的海灘。阿根廷在過去十年有極大的復興。我在夢中與年輕樣子的Cindy Jacob走在一起。前面有海灘，後面有山。Cindy說，這海灘非常漂亮，這些海浪就像是復興。可是，Jaeson在夢中回答說：我知道一個更漂亮的海灘。這兩天，我參加一個青年牧者合一退修會，當我早上醒來時，我打開窗戶，我看見外面的海灘，就是與我夢中所看見的一模一樣。因此，我完全的明白了，比阿根廷更大的復興要來到台灣，神要將阿根廷復興的雙倍恩膏降臨在台灣的年輕人身上。阿根廷的年輕人如何得著阿根廷，台灣的年輕人也要得著台灣。
阿根廷的復興如何開始的？在50年前，因為天使的顯現與吩咐，50個年輕人聚集在一起為國家復興禁食禱告50天。第49天，天使再次顯現，說：猶大的獅子已經被釋放，仇敵已經被綑綁。復興就開始臨到阿根廷，所多大型佈道會因此展開，國家的轉化因此開始。
台灣必須領受一個國家轉化的異象。更大的事情要發生在這個國家。
我向神有三個禱告，我相信你們也需要這樣為這裡的年輕人禱告：
1. 禱告殿的復興。神會在末世興起禱告殿，神的榮耀彰顯，外邦人也能看見。過去在一個世紀內，超過過去所有得救的人數進入神的國家。神要興起一個台灣的青少年禱告運動，每個校園中都要看見禱告小組、禱告殿被設立。
2. 社會的改革。神要讓年輕人成為這世代的但以理及以斯帖，政治、經濟、體育、媒體、教育，都要看見神掌權在其中。年輕人會掌權在國家的每個領域中間。
3. 新約教會的恢復。一個榮耀的教會，所有的人都被動員起來。當父母親願意相信、信任他們，給他們力量去做他們被神呼召所作的事情，他們就會被興起成為使徒、先知、傳福音、教師、與牧師。當父母親向兒女轉回，這樣的事情就要發生在我們當中。
神在2004/1-2用三個夢向Jaeson啟示。三個夢他各自夢到他與Bob Weiner, Mike Bickle, Lou Engle之間的互動。Bob Weiner帶來70年代校園的復興，也鼓勵所有的畢業生進入社會每個領域中為神掌權；在夢中他兩次為Jaeson禱告，一次為右邊（復興）、一次為左邊（改革）。Mike Bickle是IhoP（國際禱告殿）的負責人；在夢中他要Jaeson跳上他的車子，代表需要以廿四小時禱告殿做為復興與改革的基礎，才能帶出後者。Lou Engle是The Call運動的屬靈孕育者，在夢中他們兩個人在一上一下交錯的兩個電梯中相遇，Lou Engle向上（代表代禱），後面跟著一些成人與年輕人，Jaeson向下（代禱未來的復興與改革），後面跟著許多年輕人。這三個夢讓Jaeson明白：
1. 你不能只有復興而沒有改革。
2. 在你進入復興與改革，你必須先看見各地的廿四小時禱告殿被興起。
3. 所有的夢中都有兩代牽涉在其中。
在末世的時候，以利亞的靈要澆灌下來，使父母與兒女的互相轉向。當這樣的事情發生的時候，兩代一起和好、一起禱告，進入廿四小時的禱告中間，咒詛要被破除，我們就會看見極大的收割以及社會的改變發生。
禱告：「現在是成人代禱者與年輕人連結起來的時候。我們悔改我們過去對年輕人的不信任。現在是除去一切害怕的時候到了。求神使兩代復和。求神興起禱告的殿，與所有的廟宇與偶像爭戰。興起年輕人的軍隊，在這個時刻、在這個國家當中。將禱告的靈澆灌在他們當中，給他們一個異象，可以轉化整個國家，可以毀壞一切在校園與國家中的堅固營壘與意識型態。求神拯救這個國家97%未信者的靈魂，除去這中間的蒙蔽與帕子。釋放約珥的軍隊，現在就開口向神呼求，求神現在就在這個國家中生出這個約珥的軍隊來。讓我們向神呼求。當我們更多禱告，他們就更多的被生出來。」
流淚撒種的，必歡呼收割！（詩126:5）
神要成就以下這些經文在我們當中。
〔所羅門上行之詩。〕若不是耶和華建造房屋，建造的人就枉然勞力；若不是耶和華看守城池，看守的人就枉然警醒。你們清晨早起，夜晚安歇，吃勞碌得來的飯，本是枉然；惟有耶和華所親愛的，必叫他安然睡覺。兒女是耶和華所賜的產業；所懷的胎是他所給的賞賜。少年時所生的兒女好像勇士手中的箭。箭袋充滿的人便為有福；他們在城門口和仇敵說話的時候，必不至於羞愧。（詩127:1-5）
星期三, 3月 16, 2005
Doctor, vocation or occupation
Some people think,"Medicine is part of their lives." So Doctor is their vocation, a kind of job. They are easiely to be detached from patient's problem. On the other hand, some people think,"Medicine is their lives." So Doctor is their occupation. ----paraphrased from Health Practice Lecture
How many roles do I play? I'm a Christian, daughter, medical studen, cousin, friend, spiritual mate, class(lecture, course) mate. Some of these roles cannot be seperated. However, if there is a conflict between these roles, what should I do? hm...As a doctor, I should be honest and show empathy at the same time. However, if I cannot have recognition with my patients, I'm just "showing" empathy. Can I still be myself when I'm a doctor? I don't like to put on mask and be a doctor based on all kinds of expectation. Yes, I have to meet people's needs. But do I have to put it this way?
The lecturer also asked us the reason we chose to be a doctor, or at least be a medical student.
This is a really good question for me. Hard to answer though. Why do I want to be a doctor?
I have a dream, just like the lecuturer said, to go to the third world countries and change sth! The only difference is that I want to go with missionary teams. Medical services have a lot of demand in these places, as well as gospel. So this is the reason that I have droped occupational therapy and science and did my best to get into medicine. I don't think I've wasted 2 years doing other degree because that made me understand I have a passion to medicine. yeah I know that my "ideal" dream sounds naive or maybe it's not practical. I also admit that there are some other reasons, eg social rank, money(now is only the money to raise my family cos at least I have to pay back to my parents, they have sacrificed a lot to support my dream.). However, without this passion, I may just be an OT or scientists.
How many roles do I play? I'm a Christian, daughter, medical studen, cousin, friend, spiritual mate, class(lecture, course) mate. Some of these roles cannot be seperated. However, if there is a conflict between these roles, what should I do? hm...As a doctor, I should be honest and show empathy at the same time. However, if I cannot have recognition with my patients, I'm just "showing" empathy. Can I still be myself when I'm a doctor? I don't like to put on mask and be a doctor based on all kinds of expectation. Yes, I have to meet people's needs. But do I have to put it this way?
The lecturer also asked us the reason we chose to be a doctor, or at least be a medical student.
This is a really good question for me. Hard to answer though. Why do I want to be a doctor?
I have a dream, just like the lecuturer said, to go to the third world countries and change sth! The only difference is that I want to go with missionary teams. Medical services have a lot of demand in these places, as well as gospel. So this is the reason that I have droped occupational therapy and science and did my best to get into medicine. I don't think I've wasted 2 years doing other degree because that made me understand I have a passion to medicine. yeah I know that my "ideal" dream sounds naive or maybe it's not practical. I also admit that there are some other reasons, eg social rank, money(now is only the money to raise my family cos at least I have to pay back to my parents, they have sacrificed a lot to support my dream.). However, without this passion, I may just be an OT or scientists.
星期二, 3月 08, 2005
Thank you, my Lord.
Thank you, Father God, for giving me such a great sister to pray and share with me. Thank you for listening to my cry and prayers.
Thank you, my Lord, for giving me the strength and courage to change. And thank you so much for reminding me to pray and seek your face when faced with difficulties.
Thank you, Jesus, for setting the fire and giving me the burden and love toward people. Thank you so much for giving me a sister to encourage me and run the heavenly race together.
Thank you, Father God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. Not only for the things you have changed or done, but also for YOU, Your presence.....ONLY.
Thank you, my Lord, for giving me the strength and courage to change. And thank you so much for reminding me to pray and seek your face when faced with difficulties.
Thank you, Jesus, for setting the fire and giving me the burden and love toward people. Thank you so much for giving me a sister to encourage me and run the heavenly race together.
Thank you, Father God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. Not only for the things you have changed or done, but also for YOU, Your presence.....ONLY.
To all of my friends
Dear all,
I know know that some of you who read my blog are not christains. So I apologize that if any of my articles have made you feel uncomfortable.
However, I really want to share EVERY PART of my life with everyone of you. And Jesus is the most important part of my life. I have no idea how my life will be without him. HE has been changing my thoughs, my mind and my heart. Thus, it's impossible for me not to talk about my christain life in my blog, because my religion IS my life.
My dear dear friends, the reason I can stand here and get to know all of you is because of HIM. I don't have the intension to FORCE anyone of you to accept my religion and my life. What I want to do is just open my heart and share the deepest part of my life here. And I deeply wish all of you can understand. I love you guys! And that's because Jesus has loved me first!
I know know that some of you who read my blog are not christains. So I apologize that if any of my articles have made you feel uncomfortable.
However, I really want to share EVERY PART of my life with everyone of you. And Jesus is the most important part of my life. I have no idea how my life will be without him. HE has been changing my thoughs, my mind and my heart. Thus, it's impossible for me not to talk about my christain life in my blog, because my religion IS my life.
My dear dear friends, the reason I can stand here and get to know all of you is because of HIM. I don't have the intension to FORCE anyone of you to accept my religion and my life. What I want to do is just open my heart and share the deepest part of my life here. And I deeply wish all of you can understand. I love you guys! And that's because Jesus has loved me first!
星期日, 3月 06, 2005
Come and Save!
In today's service, God kept reminding me and stiring my heart toward the lost souls. I cried (I wanted to shout!) for them. I'm willing to use as much tears as I can and as much prayers as I can if you save them and touch their hearts! God! Lord! Please listen to my prayers! Please listen to my calls! Come and Save this land! Fill this land O Lord! Arise your army and arise your people to fight the war for you! To gain the glory for you! Come and Save the souls here! They need you! They cannot live without you! I don't want to tell you what to do because YOU are the authority. GOD! LORD! But I will keep praying for them and kneeling down for them. They ARE your people! They ARE your children! COME and SAVE!!!!
The role of a doctor....or I should say--a good communicator
Last week I had a ICM(introduction to clinical medicine) tutorial. I interviewed a virtual patient(my tutor). She was worried about her son. eg. hanged out with some "bad friends", etc. At the moment, I was confused about the role of a consultand and a doctor. In Taiwan, doctors (except Psychiatrists) only talk about the physical part of a patient. I have never encountered this kind of situation because I used to think that this is the job for consultants but doctors. In addition, as a doctor, what should I do to help the patient? Giving useful advices? Listening and understanding as much as I can? or just be a person whom the patient can share with? How to show my support? A good communicator is not only a doctor. But a doctor should be a good communicator. hm....I still have so many things to learn. It's a long journey!(man! 6 years is only a little beginning!)
星期五, 3月 04, 2005
Prayer
"Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me from your presence or take your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me. Psalms 51:10-12 神阿, 求你為我造清潔的心, 使我裡面重新有正直的靈. 不要丟棄我, 使我離開你的面; 不要從我收回你的聖靈. 求你使我仍得救之樂, 賜我樂意的靈扶持我
Dear Lord, I humble myself before you everyday. Father, forgive me sometimes I can't help but compete with people. When I should be happy for them(I DO!), there are still some parts in my heart think"Why I don't have that?". Or sometimes when I meet someone who is better than me at sth, I want to show that I can do that too!
Father, I don't know how to get rid of my proud. So I pray, I pray , I pray that through prayers PLEASE change my heart, PLEASE renew my heart every moment! and yes grant me a willing spirit to abey your wills! Before I understand your wills, please give me a willing spirit! Besides, I need to humble myself before you and give you all of the glory! I know that when I experience your power and grace, sometimes I would be proud of these experiences rather than acknowledge you ALL of the glory.
I need you! and I need you ONLY! I don't ask for your love, your grace, your glory and power but ONLY YOU!!!!! Open my heart and ear to listen to you. I want you! I want your presence Lord! I won't leave unless I touch yourself!!!!
星期日, 2月 27, 2005
talks talks talks
Ps Jeremy, Aunty Carol, Linda and I wen to visit several Chinese girls today. I don't know why but sometimes I still don't know what to talk. hm......I wanted to say sth but have nothing to say. I will praying that I can share more and care more NATURALLY. Keep praying that GOD puts more and more love in me! ( but the wierd thing is I can do this in Taiwan! hm......really need more strength here.)
星期日, 2月 20, 2005
To the ends of the earth
Today in english service we sang this song. "I know you've called me!"我知你呼召我. Since the retreat(mother Bread of life in TAIWAN) I've known that God has a passion toward BBL Melb. And I also know that one of the reasons God made me stay in melbourne, stay in BBL(I've considered to change church bf.) is to be a method (still dunno they way of doing this) used by God to prepare for the revival of this chosen generation in Melb.
"If a man cleanses himself from the latter, he will be an instrument for noble purposes, made holy , useful to the Master and prepared to do any good work."2 TIMOTHY 2:21
Even though I don't know what's my destiny, I don't ask for the answer but for faith and accompany of Jesus in every step I make.
"I will go to the ends of the earth!"直到世界盡頭......may your wills be done in this church and among this generation as in heaven. I know I'm very weak. But if you want to use me, I will go. If you want me to stay here, or go anywhere, if only I have your presence, then I will abide by your wills.
You gave me BBL of Taipei and Melb, and I will serve until the last day I stay.
leaving a message without joing as a member
You can just post a comment as ANONYMOUS! and if you want everyone to know who you are, just sign at the end of the comment! 還有阿,想用中文也可以喔! 請大家用最輕鬆最舒服的語言囉! 但是對我來說可能盡量會用英文,畢竟有人看不懂中文,但是總沒有人看不懂英文吧!! (如果是看不懂我寫的英文,也請提醒我去加強一下囉!)
Bread of Life in Melb
last year, have to admit that I was very disappointed with this church.(should said 無力感)
When I first steped in, I'm eager to do sth and to change sth. However, one year later, there's no difference!
I don't know how to have deeper relationship with the church. I don't know how to have TRUELY commitment in this church. In my heart, or I should say in my experience, christians are a group of ppl who grow together, share lives, pray for each other, love each other and seek the kingdom of GOD together! Maybe diferent cultures causes this different mode of relationships. don't know.
I've tried to step out but in vain. Gradually, I stop trying to build connections and stop having meaningless chats which is the beging of knowing ppl.
In this three months holiday, God has been teaching me a lesson------open my heart to love ppl rather than do sth as responsibility. God kept reminding me changing lives is the work of God ; nevertheless, I used to do by my own strength instead of enjoying God's love first.
I don't love them from the deepest part of my heart. What I wanted to do is just solve the surface problems. Without GOD's love , power and presence, NOTHING could be done. On the contrary, if God wants to do sth, NOTHING can hinder God's work! I spent one year to understand this. I felt ashamed about what I thought bf.
Knowing Jesus' heart, knowing His love toward them. This church will be and must be aroused by the fire of Holy Spirit!
The challenges I'm faced with are the same as last year. However, this time God has given me a new attitude and a new heart!
When I first steped in, I'm eager to do sth and to change sth. However, one year later, there's no difference!
I don't know how to have deeper relationship with the church. I don't know how to have TRUELY commitment in this church. In my heart, or I should say in my experience, christians are a group of ppl who grow together, share lives, pray for each other, love each other and seek the kingdom of GOD together! Maybe diferent cultures causes this different mode of relationships. don't know.
I've tried to step out but in vain. Gradually, I stop trying to build connections and stop having meaningless chats which is the beging of knowing ppl.
In this three months holiday, God has been teaching me a lesson------open my heart to love ppl rather than do sth as responsibility. God kept reminding me changing lives is the work of God ; nevertheless, I used to do by my own strength instead of enjoying God's love first.
I don't love them from the deepest part of my heart. What I wanted to do is just solve the surface problems. Without GOD's love , power and presence, NOTHING could be done. On the contrary, if God wants to do sth, NOTHING can hinder God's work! I spent one year to understand this. I felt ashamed about what I thought bf.
Knowing Jesus' heart, knowing His love toward them. This church will be and must be aroused by the fire of Holy Spirit!
The challenges I'm faced with are the same as last year. However, this time God has given me a new attitude and a new heart!
I'm Back!
haha..even though I'm so reluctant to come back, still have to go to the place where God wants me to go. So here I am!
I've experienced how great HE was is and will be in Taiwan.(later I will share with you!)
btw, I'd better let all you guys know---I've got into Med! (which is another unexpected miracle!)
sorry can't continue cos I have to go to church today so better sleep early. (but now is very late too. Maybe I got jet lag!)
I'm back to continue my life in Melb, and also continue to have a life with you, my dear dear friends. *hugz*
I've experienced how great HE was is and will be in Taiwan.(later I will share with you!)
btw, I'd better let all you guys know---I've got into Med! (which is another unexpected miracle!)
sorry can't continue cos I have to go to church today so better sleep early. (but now is very late too. Maybe I got jet lag!)
I'm back to continue my life in Melb, and also continue to have a life with you, my dear dear friends. *hugz*
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